I have officially decided to give up gaming!!(until after alvls)
And that includes Dota,o2mania,command and conquer..
NDS games (and other ulu games installed in my computer..)
Solitaire included haha
AND EVEN NEOPETS (LOLx...)
RAWR...Its difficult to resist the temptation to play..
But..for the sake of my results
and the my future freedom..

My dad says that he can get me anything once I get into a uni..
dots..Oh wow..
would breaking ties with him allowed?
I dont mind at all..
If that IS included..
I will be mugging like if I didnt I will die..
Hahas okok..zzz

Watched YES MAN! today with Addy..
Not bad xD
Tell the truth I kinda like that attitude =)
That enthusiastic spirit (but it must be because you are willing to do it from the bottom or your heart..)
I am sure no one could resist such a person
Including me haha

Wouldnt it be nice?
Anyway..
Start to think maybe I should have more of that sort of attitude
mmmm
well..we will see =)

Well..mmm

Addy is out of the hospital!!
*cheers!(Do the misson complete cheer from red alert 2)
haha

Been trying to starting on my holiday hwk..
sigh sigh sigh sigh

But anyway life still rocks!!

Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh..........................
SIGH
Addy is in hospital....
.....
...
..
.
T.T
Any god..
Regardless of any religion
Or race or anything...
Please do something to make him well again..

I dont care if his mum dont like me
I dont care if I have to be an angel
I just want Addy back being healthy..

RAWR..
Gods up there..
If I be nice and do all my homework..
Take good care of my bro..
Clean up my room..
Etc etc
Will it be able to bless him of some sort?

Nvm I shall do that..
At least its worth a try even though it seems rather stupid..

Relieved...
Phew thank god you are alright...

After some thinking, I guess I seem quite self centered and selfish..
If I were in Addy's shoes..
I may/will be the same..
My apologies for being childish,overeacting or anything..
Anyway going home soon..

I miss my bed..
I miss house food (but thanks ding your food was good too xD)
I miss maybe teddy
Oh I am starting to miss hwk actually (because nothing much to do anyway)
Most important thing..
I MISS MY SLEEP!!!!!!

Had lots of fun guys
Thanks to the seniors and fellow J2s!!=)
Auxilion rules!!

dead

I....am feeling very confused..very lost..

These days without addy I have been trying my best to live happily for addy's sake
But deep down I really really miss him a lot a lot a lot...
I actually sms his hp(because it does not have auto roam and he wont spend $$ on overseas sms)
Treating it like my diary because it makes me feels a lot better =)

The 1st day of the chalet..

Then when I heard that he was horribly sick..I was damn worried..
And..
I hated myself.
Because I do not want to pick up lihe's calls cus she pissed me off by smth
So I did not charge my hp to the full..And did not bring the charger to the eg chalet either..
I was the one who caused my own downfall..
Oh ya and I stupidly forget to top up my handphone..

I really hate myself for being so selfish and self centered
And ya I got what I deserve
I am sorry addy for causing u so much trouble..
And addy's mum..I am really sorry..(because when I called you hoping jus to know ur situation..and to hear ur existance, I heard ur mum...and her words really really hurts me abt u shldnt calling me)
for causing so much worry to u and in a way maybe I annoy u?
And also sorry for me falling in love with addy and the other way round..

Maybe I should not be so pessmistic or sounding emo..
But I am really worried about you..
Maybe when you recover..
Then I go find you ba..
I do not want to upset ur mum T.T
Or make your illness worse..

But after that I dont care..
I want compensation!!
I want A GREAT BIG hug..
To remove my emoness..
Husky too small to hug me..T.T

z

LOL!!!My bro jus said some ulu sentence that sounds extremely like tamil..it goes Oh my nian,inniang
I laughed till I cant swallow my rice+ even 喷饭 (cus he repeat it over and over again..)
Not racist or anything..but he sounds DAMN funny...
Anyway..
Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy Addy...

Rawr..cant help it..but I miss u..
But I wont emo cus I promised u and myself that I wont make u worry *nods nods

d

WAhhh..
Addy pspspsps sorry sorry for not picking up the 3 calls from u from australia(I guess is u)
was having a war with my bro over the dust pan and broom in the kitchen..
O.o *watery watery eyes psps sorry!
Feel quite bad cus overseas calls are expensive..
Arhh!!!*bangs wall
Forgive me *big innocent eyes
Meow meow meow..

aaahh

Sigh sigh addy is gone to australia..
and one month of taking care of my dear bro..(I get $100 for it though ha)
But...
The main thing is..

MY DAD sucks..
BIG TIME..SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS...
He is a freaking biaous traditional freak..(lolx)
And I hate it hate it hate it..
He is biaous towards my bro..
TREAT HIM LOADS BETTER THAN ME...
Sex discrimination more like it..sucker
Ya ya ya crap..my bro can hit and scold whatever he likes for around 3 times and not get screamed/hitted/or insulted badly( in fact dad still can laugh)
As for ME...
one single small tiny comment and poof!!
WAR!..stupid..
I wish one day I can prove my worth and say f*** u right in front of him
then throw him stacks of money and let him rot..(seriously)
I know its harsh

But
He is the one who caused me so many years of misery
He is the one who dump me into depression
He is the one who deprive me of confidence
He is the one who dont care about the family..

So heck...

escape

WOOOOOOOOTS!!....
Had a fun day yesterday at escape theme park!
Special thanks to Keith,Roy and Sandra for the great day hahas
my good mood is back~~
Well...I got freaked out by the viking boat I admit..
Was shaky after the ride and was hugging pillars (cus nothing else to hug ma)
I never knew that I will get so freaked out..
Then some ride that got me entirely wet..and i was wearing JEANS!!
After that was mmm...some small rollar coaster ride which was nothing compared to the viking scare haha..but fun though
Oh ya keith has resorted to calling me mumu mama like almost throughout the day..wow..I have officially adopted a son -.- nvm
Then the haunted house which was erm erm okok because I was not in front nor behind ha!So wasnt that scared..
Oohh the teacups!I love the teacups!!You will rise to see the sky then spin downwards..wahhh!
Then the go karts was another favourite too!!But..ROY!!why did u pick one that has engine failure?!!!I lost 1 precious lap..T.T
Well the bumper boats were mmmm for kiddos and the water was DEEP with 1.1m lolx.oh WOW..And had lots of fun spraying the people watching (and the most diao thing is that we seem to be the oldest -.-)
With lunch in between and stuff mm I had an enjoyable day!But tell the truth..I kinda wish that Addy was with me....

And oh ya LIHE IS BACK!!(and eugene came back like how many days ago....) I miss her..RAWR!!!

Phew okokay my soft toy's(mini CJ7) head fell out yesterday cus keith was playing with it too much and also partially it has too much excitement tmr I guess hahas..So off to fix it!!
Even though its PINK in colour.....

Okay humans etc etc listen up.I do not want to sound AP(attitute problem) or anything but..

IF
Next time I want to spend time ALONE

Please do not persuade/beg me more than 3 times to go out..

Or else it will irritate me to no end even though I know I am freaking softhearted and will probably give in after many pleas

And after that I will hate myself or hate the world or be super irritant and negative

So Please if you are my friend and care and RESPECT me..let me go..its not as if I will just run away like that.
I am very loyal and nice to my friends

BUT
DONT TRY ME or PUSH my limit
I am a human too
I have FEELINGS
I have SELF PRIDE
AND
I HAVE MY OWN LIFE TO LIVE for goodness sake..
Yes yes yes I sound self centered
but cant I be for once?
SO..anyone who wish to try me..go on
I dare u..
Go on and irritate me
I wont blast
But I will remember..
*I tried to keep the vulgarities in..and I did..lolx
Oh ya thanks yuge for enlightening me

gaming

I realised something..gaming does affect health in a way...
Sigh..I have been gaming so much so that I am ignoring people..
Yet deep inside I know its wrong..
But I think I am addicted..
Have headaches just thinking about it..
I need to drag myself back to reality and away from the damn computer..
Played so much that my emotional self is drained due to games
then my serious side just keep on nagging and nagging
making me feel worse..
SOMEONE..anyone...save me please..

Anyway I had a GREAT tuesday hahas
LOVE THE chocolate
and the walking around city hall like two lost tourists
and Oh wow I got a new nickname..minister Dai murrrrr...lolx
mmmmmm what else can I say?
Oh ya damn the flyer(in a way)
How can it attract more ppl to go when its whereabouts is like erm...
only 1 bus goes there (195) and apparently it seems like a loop
and the maps at city hall are not even updated!!!
*screams
got 2 blisters on my feet..
but at least I am not walking alone~~
hahas thanks Addy and seriously nice shirt and u dont look like a darren dun worry
I just dunno how to compliment u thats all =P
Thanks for the day..
Lesson learnt: Looks like I dont like beer that much..but shirley temple?NICE!!!hahas

9 WORDS WOMEN USE
(1) Fine:
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes:
If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3)Nothing:
This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4)Go Ahead:
This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh:
This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men.. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing.(Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay:
This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay m eans she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks:
A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' ... that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8)Whatever:
Is a women's way of saying F* YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

So guys better get it right..and girls haha we all know this lolx

lala

Boliaoing and trying to pia my design requests out ARHHHHHHHHHHH!!!Anyway ppl who play dota go try choose axe as your hero and pressing f1 continuously..gt interview show eh..DAMN funny was laughing and laughing when I heard it lolx..nothing much to end off...(ps yuge koped ur pic again)

mew~~

qns

Okay.. finally an update all thanks to roy a.k.a dong on the tagboard (ppl go thank him hahas)

that taggy thingy

1.What is your full name?

Dai Murong

2.Are you single?

Nah~hahas once but not now..

3.What is your favourite number(s)

maybe 21?Since a lot of people I know have the number 21 in their bdaes =P otherwise I dont ostracise any numbers haha

4.What is/are your favourite colour?

Well..I like light blue,sky blue,blue blue blue!!

5.Least favourite colour(s)?

I have something against pink..Oops..as in mainly hot pink..

6.What are you thinking now?

How am I going to clean up the looks like war mess in my room..

7.Are you happy with your life now?

Well...quite happy (apart frm how on earth am i going to get my parents to sign my report card?)

8.What are you favourite subjects in school?

MMMmmm..chinese!Oops hahas..GP?Ahhh...

9.Do you shop at malls?

Once in a while if my allowance can take it

10.Where do you wish to be right now?

Addy's house =x I want watch movie!!Or..if he is working T.T..I rather might as well just stay at home and clean my rm..

11.What should you be doing now?

DONT REMIND ME!!Cleaning my room T.T

12.Do you have a crush on anyone?

Eh...I have a bf does that count?

13.When was the last time you bought a clothing item?

Cant rmb..mm this month?Before lihe went overseas..

14.What was the last thing you drank?

Plain water HA!!

15.Do you hate liars?Do you hate backstabbers?

YES I hate backstabbers...but they must have some misunderstanding or else why would they backstab?As for liars mmm depends on whether it is for a good reason..but why not talk it out?

16.Can you make yourself sneeze?

Never tried before but I am currently sneezing like crazy due to sinus or flu or cold -.-

17.Do you fall for people easily?

If lihe were to answer for me it would be yes..mmm not exactly..

18.What does your last text msg read?

Oh that..lolx.."Ahhhhhh!!Jus now gt large wasp in my rm flying, then I ran out my rm screaming then it chase after me until I reach the toliet then it flew out of the window.."

19.Are you too forgiving?

I think so...

20.How many windows are open on your computer?

2...dong's blog to copy and this to type haha

21.Who was you last call from?

Addy last night at 1053pm after his work xD

22.What do you do with most of your time?

Gaming~~Cant blame me for being in Egaming/Auxilion or Sleeping?Haha

23.Will you and your ex get back again?

ERM...not applicable lala

24.Do you sleep with the Tv on?

So far?Nope =)

25.Which of your close friends live the closest?

Close friend?Lihe.And ya considered living the closest (even if its like 3 bus stops away)

26.Which item could you not live during the day?

MMmm hp?My dearest lappy!!Spectacles!

27.Would you share a drink with a stranger?

Can.Unless that person after drinking leaves saliva into the drink...

28.How was your weekend?

I spending it now and I think its gonna be quite normal..

29.Do you believe that ex(s) be friends?

Why not?The only problem is whether the other party wants or not

30.The last person you quarrelled with?

My mum over the cleaniness of my rm and about gaming and studies..

31.The way to win my heart?

Be true..Sensitive..Loyal..Be something like the giraffe in madacascar escape to africa..Damn sweet..remembers all her favourite things jus by plain observation..awwww..and oh ya be as crappy and random as me lolx

32.What did you do last night?

Play dota to try out lich and ouch I rather use crystal maiden..

33.Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?

Nope

34.Are you looking for a bf/gf?

Nope again cus I already have a wonderful one =P (mushy mushy woh)

35.One song that is meaningful to you?

Apologise by timberland?关怀方式，夜的第七章..and more?

36.Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?

Both as long as I can get it into my mouth!!

37.Do you drink milk straight from the carton?

Ya..(what sort of Qns is this?O.o)

38.How long is your hair?

Mmm am I supposed to take a ruler and measure?If I let down..slightly below my shoulder..

39.Do you like batman?

HUH????Neutral I guess

40.Who was the last person who told you that they love you?

Addy..jus yesterday =P

41.When was the last time you sang out loud?

One week ago when there was 歌台 below my house and I decided to sing out loud to counter their blasting of music till 11pm...

42.What did you have for breakfast?

Porridge..with carrots and erm erm bao..

43.Is you birthday a holy day?

Close to chinese new year and valentine's..isnt it holy?Or more of the day I was born!!OF course its holy!!!

44.Can you cook?

Mmmm ya not fully trained though..

45.Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

At home now?I am not wearing a shirt..more like a gown =x..from grandma in china..

46.What was the reason for the last troubles you were in?

Studies and cleaniness of my room lolx

47.What do your wear more?Sweats or jeans?

er..........jeans?

48.When is your birthday?

..........4th of Feb 1991!!

49.Do you swear a lot?

Well..I try to keep them in especially since I am a girl..but you know you know environment influence once in a while..(btw is shit considered?)

50.What was your first alocoholic drink?

Tiger beer when I was small arnd age 7?Yucky because it is bitter..

51.Do you have any regrets?

If giving up art was considered one..ya apart but what over is over no pointing crying over spilled milk

52.Who would you like to see now?

My close friends and Addy(working)..Lihe(overseas in china sadly..) Keith (playing asdsa story) Eugene (overseas in germany)..mmm..and Auxilion members..how I wish we have an outing..

53.Have the cops ever come to your house?

Nope..but the ambulance?Ya sec 4..thanks to me not looking after my bro well enough I guess...

54.Are you a social or anti-social person?

Half half cus I like making friends and all but sometimes like to have time for myself too

55.Who are your best friends?Are you still friends with them?

Yep!

56.Ever been in love?

Ya~~~Now of course

57.Ever had braces?

Noope...

58.What do you wear to bed?

Gown...or tshirt and shorts

59.Who was the last person who disappointed you?

Mum...why cant we understand each other?

60.Do you trust people?

Yes..

61.Who was the first person you talked to today?

Mum lolx room cleaniness

62.Who was the first person who texted you today?

Addy because I msg him about the wasp incident

63.What was the first thing you did today?

Open my eyes, drag myself from bed..go brush teeth wash face..eat then turn on computer and bloghop and type this post..

64. Any last words?

I got this urge to kill roy for making me type this whole chunk out!!RAWR!!

65. 5 people to tag(seems like sabo):

1)Addy?(he sure lazy bother to finish the questions and falls asleep)

2)Jiarong (hehe sabo!!!A levels over of course got a lot of time ma~~)

3)Yuge (You seem very free huh?)

4)Denise(Dont kill me!!)

5)Dont wan sabo anymore la Oops

To end off..mm *bites

Pics

sian

lala just posting pics

lo

I am just plain lazy to translate that chunk of chinese words..so I shall jus summarise it..

"Despite a lot of misunderstandings and heartaches now and then, You are getting better and better as a boyfriend"

Or...it simply means..

"meow I love you"

lolx anyway found a cute cartoon it is called pon and zi..it can be sweet, sad and emo or sick hahas

*note: pon is the yellow guy and zi the female blue =P

Today feeling quite sweet so ya

will upload more to come lala

lala

缺乏安全感吗?的确有一点,说实话我还真不知道什么时候会被遗忘..
“如果换是你，不见一年也会忘记吧。”
那时我感到好难过。
哪一天，或许会像游戏一样，玩完了就被遗忘。
直到一天突然想起，然后寻找，重玩。
可惜，爱情这种东西不是说重来就重来的。
“为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解，我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切？”
痴心绝对的歌词。
“曾经我以为我自己会后悔，不想爱得太多痴心绝对。为你落第一滴泪，为你做人和改变，也换不了你对我的坚决。”
或许是因为我很傻吧..
一味地宠着你..却比不了记忆..
好妒忌她..但不恨她。
无奈。
原本喜欢你是因为看你为她付出那么多..
的确，你是很疼我。
原本喜欢你是因为看你很有责任感..
的确，你没有辜负我。
但是，在现实里，不觉得安全。
留级，我接受了。
不当“总统”，我也接受了。
但是，事情好像越来越危险？
喂，未来你养得起我吗？(lolx)
逃避现实不能解决所有问题，这一点我想聪明的你很清楚吧。
要逃避可以，但是算我求你不要永远逃避。
我受一下委屈没关系，但是难道真要我一辈子受委屈吗？
好了好了,要是不在乎你我才不会管那么多呢..
心里话讲了，轻松许多。
称赞一下，其实感情方面你进步了蛮多的。
*微笑
比较容易沟通。
*再笑
实话实说，话是难听，但是没有隐瞒。
*紧抱(我想你可能说呼吸困难吧..呵呵)
现在呢，还是那句经典的话：
“爱一个人是不需要理由的，只要确认这份感情就足够了。”
我们加油吧！

zz

Lately nothing much to post about and just lazying around..Oh ya yes I want money!!!$$$$ Just being random..*sigh sigh..

So....mmmmm can help me get money?Found something interesting..emailcashpro..you can earn money by simply reading emails!!lolx and if you invite/refer your friends to join your earnings will increase..SO..*evil look Pls help me xD click the thingy below and join!

chem

OMgOMGOMGOMG...

I..
TOOK...
CHILLI..
AGAIN..
TODAY!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...now stomachacing..pain pain..why do I always forget that??but..but..that sotong looks so tasty..and..I thought I can tarhan the taste..*sad.. now I am suffering horribly..

Oh ya..SUGAR -.-
I have never been so scared of SATURATED sugar solution in my whole life (syrup-y)
Spent today from 12-930pm to help out with some Chem programme..and to earn CIP hours

(actually I just wanted to go for fun cus hehehe can benefit me in many ways..a.k.a improve my promotional chance??Oops kidding..thats not true la..or maybe.)

So ya..never knew that STARING at sugar syrup getting filtered was SOOOOOOOO fun..haix..oh ya..there is one damn weird guy in the group I am in charge of..he is jus damn...-.- crap..hopeless..made me rolled my eyes dunno how many times today during the session..I shall talk about that next time after the last session tmr..can die I tell you.

That guy makes me appreciate Addy more no kidding..THANK GOD ADDY YOU ARE NOT THAT HOPELESS!!WIll mention tmr I guess..too tired now..zzZZZZ

B.U.M

I dont know when are you able to read this post..But addy..In my opinion..Even if you others say you are not deserving of the name of BUM..

I do not agree.

You did tried.I know.Whether it is attendence taking, meetings, etc etc..you do put your heart into it..Its not that you cannot do a good job..it is the fact that you cannot cope/ not ready for it yet (right?).

No(your choice) it is not running away from reality.

It is facing it the hard way..of giving up things that you know will hinder or make things far more worse..I remembered that night when I was going home and smsed you "when is EG going to open?".. within around 30s..you sent sms to everyone in eg asking for a meeting..

Tell the truth..I was so proud of you then..Really.

Because you were responsible.

Oh ya and whenever there are problems up at the EG room e.g duty slots..you didnt ignore them..You made an effort to bring back the EG team..For that, I salute you and even if the whole world is against you.Remember you still have me as a supporter..and someone who appreciate you..

And your choice..if its best for you..Of course I will support it no matter what it is hahas.DUH Or else why am I holding the royal title of addy's gf? =P The only part thing I foresee is....

What about prom?!!O.o??!!

Lolx..seems unimportant at the moment Oops lalalalala

Kkkk nothing else to say..(btw no white font in this post for those who highlighted this post.Or Maybe....)
From now onwards, I should be proud and supportive that addy is my bf. *nods nods..all discrepencies are banned.So there people..say ALL you want.
(oh nvm..I wanted to change it to white...)

Peranakan 1

Me, anna and someone behind peeping...

Bus back from Peranakan museum

OMG I realised that nicholas looks as if....
more coming up once I get pictures from anna hahaha

Rawr

Now in EG room poned econs..my personal supervisor(eugene) will nag like siao if he hears of it...I am kinda glad that I arranged for him to be my personal supervisor for this week..Because at least he takes this job seriously and despite my futile pleas and excuses he still "nags" at me..Duh thats why I have this job in the first place..and tell the truth I am really grateful towards him because he respects my (seemingly stupid) idea..and even signed the dumb contract...Thanks...I really appreciate it..

Anything else?I dunno..Oh in case anyone thinks I am gonna ditch addy for eugene (directed to all the idiots and *swear word swear word swear word out there..I am on the verge of losing my temper so sorry...) GO ON THINK ALL YOU WANT..I DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT..BUT I WUN..BETRAY OF ALL PEOPLE...HIM...Yes its true that eugene is nice and all and seem to be closer to me as compared to addy..thats because he is a great friend to me..thats all..at least..mmmm...I have someone to look for when I stay back late in school..at least I am not alone..haha..lolx...(that lol dont seem convincing..nvm I am probably just pmsing or smth..but this is kinda overshooting the limit..I wonder why?)

Yeah to Denise and Lihe (btw the above dont apply to both of you)..thanks for the concern..but I think dont scold addy..I think the blame should be on me..ya true the argument is that if addy actually bothers "more" about me rather than eugene does they will not say anything..but too bad..thats me...thats addy..I guess..You cant exactly change our styles..I guess..zzzZZ

Sigh..

Not much to post about..but recently I found Roy's blog..
I never knew that he loved her that much...
Before I start commenting, I want to say that I know that I have no rights in interfering in sandra's and his business..especially when i did say I have forgiven her and is neutral towards her..
I guess that released me from the hatred and I admit I learnt a lot from that long time ago incident..
It is ironic that during that time, it was her who gotten her happiness while I was the supposingly loser party in this game. I, who cared a lot about both him and her, lost. I can still remember that I was constantly asking myself whether what I did was stupid, whether I was extremely naive.. But now, I found my own share of happiness and realise hey I am not whatever I thought I was.

However, when I see sandra and her current ways of searching for happiness..I feel..kinda sad for her..I am not one to judge a person whether he or she is right or wrong..but seeing both sides of their story..*sigh For roy, in my opinion, he should remain as her bro, but dont patch up with her..Or else it would just turn into a vicious cycle..and sand needs her space..As for sand, I think, its better if left to herself and she learns to stand on her own..

But above are just mere opinions, not meant to hurt, not meant to brainwash..

Its best to leave them alone?I guess so, because currently I have no say in their matter. Especially when I seem to live a happier life..
Because I have addy lolx =x
All I can say is good luck, cheer up and go on with life.(Well, Almighty Darren says that life CAN BE horrible haha)

fishy game

Promos over

PROMOS ARE OVER!!!!!
And my six sense tells me that I am gonna be retained
No time to blog still...currently piaing the cute little eg/auxilion logo..headeache...zzz Still got OP..haix..sian sian sian..haix haix haix..nvm nothing much to say anyway..half dead.

...

People say PMS but I realised that there is smth FAR FAR HORRIBLE AND WORST!!!

PWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

listening to songs to keep me alive..while I pia the DAMN WR out

Devil May Cry - Shall Never Surrender
The time has come and so have I
I'll laugh last cause you came to die
The damage done~the pain subsides
And I can see the fear clear when I look in your eye.

I never kneel and I'll never rest
You can tear the heart from my chest
I'll make you see what I do best,
I'll succeed as you breathe your very last breath.

~Now I know how the angel fell [just kneel]
I know the tale and I know it too well [just bow]
I'll make you wish you had a soul to sell [soul to sell]
When I strike you down and send you straight to hell

~My army comes from deep within
Beneath my soul--beneath my skin
As you're ending, I'm about to begin
My strength
~His bane
~and I will never give in.

~I'll tell you now I'm the one to survive
You never break my faith or my stride
I'll have you choke on your own demise
I make the angel scream, and the devil cry

My honored brethren
My honored brethren

We come together
We come together

To unite as one
To unite as one

Against those that are damned
Against those that are damned

We show no mercy
We show no mercy

For we have none
For we have none

Our enemy shall fall
Our enemy shall fall

As we apprise
As we apprise

To claim our fate
To claim our fate

Now and forever
Now and forever

We'll be together
We'll be together

In love and in hate
In love and in hate

They will see.
We'll fight until eternity
Come with me
We'll stand and fight together
Through our strength we'll make a better day
Tomorrow
we shall never surrender. [X4]

~[Whisper] We shall never surrender [X2]

YA!! NEVER SURRENDER TO PW...

haiz

Been quite stressful lately but still..I am kinda glad to have a strong self controlled side that takes over when my usual emotional/hyper/optimistic/energetic self is dying or dead..but still that "dying" self will still cry for help by smsing friends and going arh!!!I am stressed!!etc etc...Actually in fact I admit I just wanted someone to comfort me...To tell me that everything will be alright...But not so emo till sms someone this sentence (dont know where I got it from) :

I am emo.So wad are u gonna do abt it?
I sound like the cousin of elmo lolx..
Wow right?Kkk maybe I sound like I cant manage stress?Maybe sound like I am weak?Who cares?Tell me.Who doesnt get stressed?And I admit its kinda dumb to hide the fact that you are stressed from your close friends..In my opinion no point bottling it up and making it worse..

However...In the case when theres no replys...I wont blame anyone because in a way its not exactly their business that I am emoing or sad or stressed (but that would make the world a quite sad place to live in huh?Thank god this RARELY happens because I got great friends xD)...And instead of emoing more and wasting time..I just kill off all my feelings and goes into so called "strong self controlled" state (sounds like a robot haha) which just goes around doing things and feeling numb until I recover or someone "save" me..but overall I wont hurt myself..no way!I still love myself =) for this barrier that saves me from falling into useless depression..
but wait..isnt that supposed to be good stress management?arhhhh!!nvm heck!!
One thing for sure.I will and always will be true to myself.*nods nods kkk off to PW...sigh...even if I am going to screw up almost everything..I will not give up living this life.

weee!

you jr
Went yuge's blog and out of randomness took a quiz:
Which Immortal are you attracted to?

Angel - Your guardian angel who would never let harm befall you

Okay..why not fallen angel?I like the dark wings even though for me is White wings..lolx heck..If only I have wings..

sian

Ouch..Promos coming up..almost ALL my relatives placing stress on me and placing their hopes on me..sigh..no choice..HAVE TO BE PROMOTED!!Anyway dug something out from my diary and..
OH SHOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Being a person with high pride and very independent..apparently I once made a vow when I entered JJC...

"I will not have a stead for the whole of JC1..as for JC2 still thinking la..So..If I break my promise, I will memo the whole periodic table and copy all the econs notes..and do all the maths tutorials..creepy sia..I am sure after writing this down..I wont even dare have a single thought.."
I must be nuts..
WALAO...*bangs wall..OMG...Nvm now I need to study anyway so might as well..but..but..jeesh..nvm at least its worth it hahas..
Yep every second worth..or else I wont even bother..
Have to keep myself away from the com and push myself now..I must do it!!(this means no update of blog!*directed to jr)The cranes count shall stop at 522 for now (addy counted the cranes on his side and I added them up..WOW I am halfway through!!) Kk nothing much life still rocks (Addy too!And everyone!!)

Wee!!

Even though I say I dont want to post..but..nvm

1st. Crysanthemum tea.....
A random idea pop out of buying a drink for addy after his pc
I never knew that buying a BOTTLE of crysanthemum tea was that difficult..At first, I went to drinks paradise to buy..(apparently crysanthemum tea went to hell...) The bottled one was out of stock..So I went to the other drinks stall and it was out of stock too!!(oh wow what happened?Demand for crysanthemum tea increased?) So I decided to give the vending machines a try..
DMR will not be defeated in her quest for the holy crysanthemum tea!!
Upon reaching the vending machine, I saw that it was being refilled..So I waited..and waited...and loitered around holding my ice lemon tea..when finally the guy finished..I went forward to see that it is extremely foggy and that I cant see anything clearly except for the colour of the drinks...and I saw a yellow coloured drink and the bottle looked like the crysanthemum tea one..
FINALLY!!!After so many obstacles!
*clink clink clink..plop!

Happily I took out the bottle...and....My jaw dropped..my eyes widened..I was shaking all over (that was exagerrated)..IT WAS JASMINE GREEN TEA!?!(never in my life have I hated jasmine green tea!!)....Speechless...now holding two bottles and looking like an idiot..I decided to go find addy first and see whether he will mind..And some random friend jus pop out and grab the bottle..I talked to her for a while and since its after her pc and she was kidding about kidnapping the jasmine green tea..I said..JUST take it!!Take it away from me..Please!!..Out of frustration..I jus stormed to the nearby CAN vending machine and buy a CAN of crysanthemum tea..and placed it beside addy's bag..
Wonder what will be my reaction if the can crysanthemum tea is sold out..mm I think I will go the packet one?Nvm..
2nd. Found Bob and out of nowhere I remembered that he still has addy's mp3..and I wanted it(despite 120MB I guess) So I koped it from him..and he brought it!O.o
Me and denise renamed him the prositute caller cus he makes that disgusting kissing sound..
3rd. Went JP with the intend to buy an earpiece and some girls stuff...but I didnt get the last one cus addy decided to tag along and it will be kinda dumb..noticed that my ez link card was running of $..
Jeesh..
4th. Was waiting for the bus when 198 turned up with a sign saying free rides today!O.o?!!WOW?!Apparently it was Great Eastern's 100th anniversary and they sponsored the free rides..and I was so lucky to catch the bus!Omg I was so happy that I was mumbling birthday songs for great eastern company..
they are really great!!
5th It rained...OUCH..so I have a teeny weeny trouble in getting home as the rain was quite big..BUT...I have addy's jacket LOL!!!(second time I use it as an umbrella) and wow..its quite efficient..I wasnt drenched at all..only my skirt got a bit wet..the shirt only had a few drops of rain..and my hair was dry O.o!!wow..now its hanging out to dry..I think I have to wash it tmr..despite my reluctance to do so...grr...

Okay...overall it was really eventful..and theres more but I have studies you know jr...*pokes pokes..

Post rating: 20% unlucky 80% LUCKY! hahas

Quote of the day: After the rain, theres always the rainbow to look forward to!

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Jeesh this is getting to be a bad habit?Blogging..haix..lihe got a new psp..Ya LIHE not me and lihe...disclaimer here..I know it sounds kinda bitter but you cant blame me
Initially the plan was we share..now it just belongs to her because she know that I cant pay up the other half..pathetic huh?Lol wrong usage of words..
nvm its okay..I cant blame anyone for the situation of my family or $$..ya root of all evil yet we need it..CRAP..okok nvm..I should stop it..I should wake up from thinking from my naive thoughts..and learn to STAND by myself..sounds damn crap..mm maybe it is?Aiya just take it as a lesson and I AM NOT GOING TO USE THE STUPID PSP..and I do not want to ruin a friendship just because its over a stupid thing..I will just help u settle the rest of the stuff then get that thing away from me..I DONT CARE..
it has happened so many times before..I should have known earlier that this will happen..again..I am just damn noob..
Okok enough of this emo crap...Oh ya today addy gave me a coin pouch that look like a squashed turtle..LOL reminds me of EMo turtle hahas..but hahas its kinda cute even though I have been spending almost the whole day staring at it and wondering why is it so squashed?mmm addy did u sit on it? =x nvm but thanks a lot times googolplex!!Nick arh your msg was the best of the notes I have on my paper! Everyone's was absolutely great but urs really kinda imbal..no kidding..
ESPECIALLY the part where you say you love addy too..LOL *applause
Last thing, jus now there was someone at the door going hello?And my parents were saying its my turn to see wads on and if nothing of our interest, I am supposed to shoo the salesman or smth..I went there and this guy was asking me mmm is this your pizza..I was like O.o?!!HUH? my house got order any pizza meh?I told him wrong house and he was like isnt this 545?I say ya..but wrong unit?..then he go OH!!cus my unit no. is #06-81..his order was for #06-18..LOL
And I should have koped the pizza or smth but nvm no point..and I have to pay anyway lol
Okok enough..A bit pissed cus someone tell me to find psp related stuff while I got ONE STUPID TEST and a WHOLE stack of homework undone...haix..shld really blame myself..why am I so stupid?

Hiaz

Spent the whole day out..lazy type everything out..but had an enjoyable day anyway..


Thanks to PW and Addy!!=P I KOPED HIS JACKET!!hahaha no more freezing in the lecture thereatre!


Lalalala...oh ya here is a very interesting picture..rather applicable to ding in a way =P hahaha I feel so evil

Okie thats all..Life rawks!!Addy rocks...had an interesting dream with him inside when i went home and sleep..a secret =x

Toliet

OkOk naggy jr...walao so curious..yep..today main topic is what happened in my toliet..lolx
Kinda crappy..and jr curiousity kills the cat..and shouldnt you be STUDYING?lolx
Anyway, after the US maths programme for students with Special and Unique grades for H2 maths..I went home to take a nice warm bath..Then as you all know, there are those mini drains in toliets(usually white in colour and with a cover with lost of holes)..and the one in my bathing toliet is opened most of the time so that the water will be drained at a faster rate.
Kinda dumb idea from my dad...I feel like slaughtering him after today..
Today, because of lots of choinging and events and brain draining things.I decided to enjoy myself and take a LONG NICE once in a while full throughout shower..So I doubled soaped and was washing my hair when I accidentally wacked the soap box..

OUCH..BAD move...

Well soap being soap and the whole place being wet and all..it went running all over the place in a flash..and I started looking for the 3 pieces of soap..after finding all 3..I realised something..the soap container is gone!!It cant be found anywhere in the toliet (I literally went on my knees and looked for it..) So..I just had this feeling of dread and stare towards the drain hole while it gave me an empty look..I looked inside to see total darkness..

"I DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS..NO way..NO WAY..."

After thinking of my mum's nagging if I lost the container and the risk of clogging up the pipes..I decided to quickly stivk my hand into that hole which my shower water went in..and maybe many more things...eww..avoiding the walls of the hole as much as possible..I reach in and got the container out..thank god it was floating..

I quickly washed my arm and put back the soap to where it was..and continued with my shower..lalalala...THEN...when I was about to finish...
Horrors of all horrors..AHHHH!!!
I WACK THE STUPID SOAP CONTAINER AGAIN!!!
*bangs wall repeatedly
So I searched for the soaps again..this time the container can be seen..BUT 2 pieces of soap are missing..OUCH..I turn once again to the hole..I can imagine if it was alive it will be laughing and mocking me..GRrrr..my arm dived in again...and got one small piece..However, the newly just taken out and large soap is still MIA..So poor me have to dig for it again..
I never knew that in my life such interesting events will happen...
Upon feeling it..I was shocked..stunned..stupified..because it was quite stuck..Damn it!!...zzzz..After fiddling with it and even changing to my right hand..I finally got it out after a miserable 3 mins or so..it got out looking like a dalmation dog.(the soap is initially white..)..ouch..anyway after cleaning up my arms (washed like dunno how many times) and washed the soap 3 times..(how ironic) I finally finished my shower..and CLOSED THE DRAIN COVER!!

When I got to my clothes..I saw some sort of tiny ulu bug crawling on my undergarment(bra)..Instead of screaming..I gave it VIP treatment....no kidding..cant blame me =x
NO ONE..ESPECIALLY A BUG..IS ALLOWED TO STAY IN MY BATHROOM..WATCHING ME BATH..AND HIDING IN MY UNDERGARMENT AND LOOKING AT ME ACTING LIKE AN IDIOT DIGGING FOR SOAP FROM THE DRAIN!!!
I threw it to the floor..crushing it to a million pieces with the nearby toliet brush..hitting it for dunno how many times...pick it up using toliet paper and flushed it down the toliet bowl..
May it rest in peace...poor thing oops
Oh ya..er..mmm no cold stuff for 5 days...

zc

I need to look forward and stop looking back....and sealing myself for a while..smart ppl or ppl who know me well enough will have their methods of getting through me if they need for today..

Weird that when I am too stressed or truamatised, I change totally. The first reaction is too complain first..(thats normal)..then when its extreme..I just keep quiet..zip my mouth and is the coldest creature you will ever meet..try arguing with me abt unreasonable things during this time and I may (if no reply means I dont give a damn about what you are talking about at all) reply you with at most 1 short sentence. I will try to be more responsive towards closer friends but dont irritate me during this time..I mean it.(at least I dont say get lost)

Best way for this to end?Just leave me alone for some time if you dont know how to drag me out from it and I will recover on my own..

hair+crysanthmum

Weee..........Okok arhh..jus a quick post...

Today I was irritated by my fringe poking my eye so often *poke poke that I went into the toliet and cut it all by myself...OUCH..not that it is totally horrible..but...mmm I dont know..(its kinda obvious =P)
And I feel like a total idiot with 2 pairs of scissors..1 comb leaning over the sink lined with newspaper in front of the mirror and cruelly cut off my hair..I can practically hear it screaming in pain (oops hair dont scream)
Hope I wont be laughed at lolx..but heck la I feel MUCH BETTER!!HAHA

Oh ya last thing...Chrysanthemum TEA!!Dont ask..its just random =x
SLIPPERS RULEZ!!

Dan

I am just putting aside a piece of my past and walking forward..maybe the load will be lightened..maybe it will not..

This will be the last time I bring up Dan..Lihe always wanted me to kill him..and he was supposed to be a protective barrier..but I guess..It time to say goodbye to him..because he was just a part of me..when his name was created I never noticed the intials..until somehow i realised..Dan Moonrain..DMR..is still me..always me..the one who used to escape from reality and shields myself from harm..its a bad thing *nods nods and so I choose to leave that safe comfy area into reality..

Goodbye..Dan..my guardian angel..=)

Teachers

Received this from Yuge and since its bemusing..I might as well post it here hahas

*music+drum rolls*

Presenting the reasons why some teachers go mad so easily..

zzz

Too lazy to type in my normal format..lets just say I found a very interesting place..mmm the top of a carpark!!Its quiet but rather windy I should say..But I like it!!Thanks addy for showing me the place =) hehehe one day when I am free and feel like it..I may just appear there and relax hahas..

Events experienced..

1. Wall or whatever it is called..Its SO HIGH UP!!TO think that me DMR will be beaten by a mere wall!!So what if you are taller than me?!Grrr...I will conquer it!!I swear upon the name of Dai murong or another name or whatever that I will CONQUER IT!!
To my pumpings!!.Or maybe I will just get a tall chair the next time I go there =x
2.Addy pulled me up that wall..wow..okay..its always when such things happen that I realised that guys have more physical strength than girls..and that I am not so strong as expected...
(but that doesnt demoralise me because I got addy hahas)..but I think I need to trust him more..
3.Er...its difficult to get down the wall?ahh....I feel damn hopeless!!!like some idiot dangling at the side and trying to gain confidence to let go..*bangs wall..

4.When I reach home I found out I got sunburned..LOL!!!Rather bemused because the area affected is in the middle of my arm..wonder why?Its red..and quite warm..and a teeny weeny bit painful..BUT the main thing is that it itches!!!!AHHH!!I know I am not supposed to scratch it..But...but..its really really itchy!!Grrr...nvm

Overall the day is worth it *nods nods..And I still hate power series and Maclaurin..wish I can poke his grave or smth *TOUCH WOOD!! Oops cannot say such stuff..the seventh chinese lunar month has yet to end so choy choy choy..

mmmm..one more thing..er..Does my "hitting" or "attacking" really affect you?For guys I think hitting or wanting to attack someone means you hate or dislike the person...but I dont mean it that way...I do that to people who are close to me..To do that because I dont know how to express myself..you can bully me back or retaliate for fun too...
男人不坏女人不爱?(lol just kidding!!since jiarong was saying it sounds sick and all..walao..i didnt mean it la u think so much)..
I wont cry la..I really want you to win me once in a while..its not fun to be the winning side all the time..I feel like being a spoilt brat hahas..

crane

Nothing much to say..Oh ya i went back to my crane folding lately because I have almost nothing much to do with my hands during some boring lessons or when I am free..
*fold fold fold
Been asked for god knows how many times by my classmates on why on earth am I folding cranes?And why on earth 1000?I simply answer "oh for fun and nothing better to do "But thats not the truth hahahas
eh..actually I too shy to tell them the real reason la..I realised that I am really a damn shy person sometimes
Why cranes?
because there is this japanese legend that says if you make 1.000 cranes, your deepest wish is granted.

I wanted to give addy the wish so ya..
Its not that he is sick and me folding to wish him fast recovery -.-
There is another saying that before folding the crane, if you write a person's name inside and complete 1000 of the cranes, you are giving the person the greatest blessing anyone can get.That person will in turn find happiness =)
kinda crap and naive of me huh?
Oh ya another stupid reason is that I want to be unique!!I want to be the only person in this world that actually makes 1000 paper cranes, not just any normal 1000 paper cranes, everyone of them contains addy's name!hahahaha I feel so honoured!!Only person in the whole world in this era and hopefully maybe the next era too!!

Oops i forget to mention the current crane count of all things..314!!and counting..(btw eh..addy after promos bring your birthday present big box with the cranes inside so that I can place them together and add them together cus I wan exact 1000 not more..not less!!)

Post rating: 100% craney hahas

Quote of the day: Our life has meaning beyond the limitations we experience here and now, that each of us does make a difference, that each of us can dispel a little of the darkness around us with the light of our caring heart, eyes, and hands.
(damn long huh?)

addy

Spent almost the whole day at jr's hse with ding and addy and jr(er..duh?)!Woots!OKok I am crazy about DMC hahas..but mus control *nods nods because promos..studies etc..I must not let myself down!!Oh ya to jiarong..sorry for messing up that room (what exactly is it used for anyway? O.o) and also being lightbulbs and kajiaoing you and ding (oops dont kill me ding! >.<) But ya I had fun!! And me and addy didnt do anything out of place in that room with the bed at all!!Oops sounds wrong but true..all we did was play laptop play viwawa..study a bit of physics and chem ha!So jr you dont have to warn addy in attacking your sister hahas
After looking at sandra koh hui en/winds's blog..I empathize with her..and ya you are forgiven.If me Dai Murong ever bring up any issues or the past events about you and contains hatred..I shall go bang wall and die a thousand deaths (LOL)..reason?Thanks for hearing me out that time when I am having some troubles of my own..I appreciate it.That time was horrible..its like I cant find anyone at that instant to confide in..not even lihe(because apparently her replys that time was not helpful at all) So I smsed her out of the blue..and well she is having almost the same prob as me that time so I felt much better
I am really really grateful for that..
Oh ya..eh...grr...sighh...haix...aiyo..er..winds psps if I use your method of blogging here..its much better (HUGE hint: I disabled the prevent highlighting script)
ADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!It doesnt matter whether I love you more than you love me or not..as long as you have feelings for me..that all it matters..I am not greedy de *nods nods
Okok no time to blog off to do GP!!And I STILL got tons of work to do..(cus I kinda wasted one day but in a way its worth it =P)
Ya because got addy!! =x and the warmth in your hands..
Addy..dont play too much!!I want to see you in J2!!And I want your class to continue be beside mine!!
Love ya!hahas
Post rating: 99% hyper + happy 1% dunno wad

Quote of the day: Life rocks because you all exists!!!

busy

Wa...Singapore's national day!!I am not from singapore and still celebrating it?LOl?nah..maybe someday I just convert to be a singaporean?But MUST consider it very very throughoutly..

Anyway..the celebration was rather okay..jus that LOTS of time was given for us to rest..However, I realised that I have been slacking off with one stack of homework and worksheets staring and glaring at me..sigh..some much to do..and I am just plainly procrastinating..*bangs wall..cannot!!*shakes shakes

Oh ya er...sigh..08/08/08 was someone's birthday..and lihe had to bring me along to choose+buy his present..zzzZZ jeesh..mixed feelings..its damn hard to forget that idiot because he was damn nice to me..and ya my heart hurts a little when I see him..looks like some things are hard to forget huh?The most ironic part is that his class is like 1 number apart from addy's 08S22 and that he is in the same lecture group as addy..but the pain isnt that strong in school usually until his birthday arrived and stupid present..stupid la...lihe!!I understand that as a friend and all you will want to give him a present and all..but can dont drag me along?I am really trying to forget him...and his existance in my heart is already getting reduced to just a friend..then you have to do this..*bangs wall..but cant blame her..haix..nevermind, one thing for sure..I am still gonna live by my rule of if he dont want to waste time on me..I will not waste any time nor feelings on him..he is just but a friend..just a part of a bitter sweet memories...*takes eraser and erases zc..

apart from that..the dark knight arh..LOL *bemusement..okay the movie was rather okay but a bit too dark?And I finally realised that I rather prefer horror movies than sadist ones..or more of the takes gun and kill instantly instead of seeing something getting mutilated slowly in front of my eyes..(*pain pain..pain >.<) arhh!!The actor for the joker was not bad..er..the harvey guy after turning evil part was a teeny weeny bit too short..as in the ending was kinda sudden..for 2 hrs..they spent the last 30mins rushing things liddat..but overall not bad..and considering that I lost my wallet and was found by the staff there..I have nothing to say lolx...Oh ya and the lesson I learnt a few weeks ago was kinda applicable..

When you lose something, do not wait or hesitate to turn back. Or else, you may never get it back..and be filled with regret.

wow it rhymes?okok anyway ya haha I pulled a stunt on addy and wasted his sending me home trip =x

(hey!When I tilt my head I was thinking of what to say and also was trying to ask "mm..whats on your mind now?")

Anyway, I was walking to my unit, thinking of addy walking downstairs(i do that all the time and always wanted to shout down or throw something down e.g flower pots!kidding lol)..then your sms came..I just hesitated..until the second I open my house gate..I decided to turn back..It seems crazy to me too..but well its worth every minute and energy I ran to the bus stop!!Because I dont want to regret..

Thank goodness I didnt get the wrong bus stop or any bus come to drag you away..I was quite lost at what to do when I found you though =x I didnt plan that part..all i thought was to catch you before you are gone..(quite dumb huh?without any plan on what to do..) *hits myself on the head..

OKokok off to pia hwk..I dont want to kana retain!!May not update that often so bear with me dearest readers hahas

Post rating: Can I dont rate?Lazy sia hahas

Due to the lack of brain cells to think of a quote of the day...I jus put something crap

Random: I realised that my waist is 20.7 inches!!69cm if I am not wrong.mmm...

thiink

Okay for the post before that..I have to admit I learnt a lot of stuff..a whole lot more..and some clarification here

Hey!Since I am giving you the break and all..must not waste it hor!!I mean it >.< This time is for you to catch up on your studies *nods nods and give you freedom time so the same old words when it all started...

不知道能帮上什么忙.....但是给你两个字...加油！

I will be like your onion cheerleader behind u hahas

lying

This is going to be a horrible emo post but I am sorry if I have to post this and affect all your moods..psps...

If only you knew how much you actually hurt me...If you wanted some time to rest and breathe..why not just say it out?If you wanted a break till promos..why didnt you just say so?It may just because you do not want to hurt me or anything..but its worst when you keep it built inside and expect me to guess..Its this that is really hurting me...It was until today when I finally cannot stand my own sadness and pain and was writing an extra super emo entry under ur hse block..(I post this in my old extreme emo blog ) but that is not the point..I sense that there is something wrong..and was thinking that I am being thrown aside and ignored with each growing day..well for more info go dig my emo blog for the emo crap (trust me its not good for your health)

Anyway, if not for lihe telling me to talk out with you and not do things in a fit of emotions in case I regret or something, I would have done something drastic(I wont kill myself though lolx) and cause more trouble.So thanks lihe..and i initially wanted to sms you this in answer for the break till after promos cus I was frustrated.."Even better.Until then, you can keep husky because I dont want to see it at all.." because it will hurt me..but after much talking with lihe on the phone (ouch my phone bills) and her asking Qns about whether I really like/love addy...(I answered dunno to all =x)..ya I changed my sms to something more of what I really will want to say calmly..

1st.
QNS: When one day addy just tell you that he didnt like you anymore, how will you feel/react? Ans to lihe: *pause.......Dunno
Real Ans: I hate to admit..but I will really feel heartbroken and go into a state of depression until I eventually recover(but I wont kill myself)

2nd.
QNS: Do you wish to see him/miss him a lot if he goes away for a long time?
Ans to lihe: *pause...........Dunno
Real Ans: Yes.No point running away from my feelings and denying them.

3rd.
QNS: If a better guy appears and attempt to chase you, will you abandon addy?
Ans to lihe: *longer pause...................Dunno
Real Ans: No. Unless if addy choose to dump me..if he refuse to believe me..then I think I may consider breaking but will not fall for the better guy instantly.

OkOKok I cant rmb the rest...nvm anyway..did a lot of soul searching...but my heart still hurts..because you didnt tell me and made yourself and me miserable...at least on the bright side..it is resolved and no more complications of this matter.

Post rating: isnt it obvious? 0% happy 100% emo (hopefully no more such posts again)

Quote of the day: Even if you do not want to hurt me..can you please dont lie?

Stomach flu

OUCH..I can proclaim that this is one of the worse days of my life....Never ever have I felt so weak in my whole life!!!Well..at least not totally hopeless cus when I was applying for early leave, the AM (dunno wads that) suspected me of lying of my fever cus

"You dont look sick.."

I really feel like punching her and saying

"Well thats because I AM CONTROLING THE PAIN AND SMILING!!YOU TRY STANDING IN MY POSITION!!"

Oh well, I guess I got something close to or IS stomach flu...I couldnt just let it torture me further cus I was really dying..with the running to toliet due to diarrea(dunno how to spell) and the feeling of vomiting...and damn weak -.- the worse thing is that I CANT TASTE ANYTHING AT ALL!!!...the feeling sucks I tell you..*sob sob

Anyway..despite all this..I have to thank some people for their care and concern...

Keith for lending me $10 and telling me to take care and entertain me + gave me peace while i was in horrible pain at the grandstand...and looking for something I dropped...(ouch)

Lihe for looking for that thingy too lolx while I run around for the early leave form

My class people for showing me concern and caring for me..especially the girls..thanks to gavin and calvin for help with the early leave form...thanks to sharron for preventing me from taking milk (or it will be worse) thanks to anna for telling me that its a wonderful disease as she lost 3kg the last time she got it...thanks to clara for saving me from pc this morning..Sherrill for her interesting fierce sms of care and concern..thanks to those I didnt mention psps

Denise for buying my breakfast and allowing a sweaty and half dead me to lie on her bag

Thanks to the GO staff who tolerated my running in and out to figure out the early leave procedure.Thanks to the Ms quek who finally appeared and told me best dont return to sch O.o thanks to the ECONS teacher Mr ho

Thanks to my dad for sponsering my bills and saving me from school

okok...well...thanks to addy for accompanying me to the clinic..actually I wasnt planning on dragging him along..(because I am too used to suffering on my own and dont want to bother anyone...) *push that aside but I dont know what to do during waiting time..and tell the truth I dont want to go there alone..so I ask for husky from addy..at least that would be great company xD In the end he went with me (mus be quite boring huh?) zzzZZZ in fact I was slipping out of conscience during waiting time but kept awake by listening to him and myself trying to talk..

KK got mc for tmr..R.E.S.T!!!I shall emo with the toliet and my medicine ESPECIALLY the painkillers (oh wow I WAS PRESCRIBED PAINKILLERS?!)

...

ARHHHHHH!!!!Okok after one hectic day of starvation..I decided+swear that DMR is never NEVER gonna STARVE herself ever again!!!!!Well, to save money, I was trying my best to contain my hunger and only ate cereal for my break (also due to the need to do PW)..and so it lasted till the end of lesson time...when gastric hit me..

*ouch ouch pain pain...

With the reduced time to eat later at 217 due to GP....ZzzzzZZZ I gobbled up my food...in an extremely unstable and weak state..(was sitting with jean le and addy but I didnt show) anyway after eating...(happy!!happy!!)..but still headache+a sudden rush of thoughts made me a bit dizzy so I decided to try to not think of anything..keeping silent...

*silence...

After all the cca activites+darren's discussion..I was feeling better after laughing at the idea of a special pulley system for food..(if i got the energy can do commercial but nvm) ..you need a special duty slot for food runners and transporters u know =x hahas..anyway..after the meeting and time to go home..I was entertained by nicholas attempting to gay/gaying with addy..LOL!!!

Gross but got my entertainment!!

kiat wah and jiawei was asking me u not jealous meh?Okay..I am pass that stage and I realised that there is no point in getting jealous and making addy feel bad...and its funny looking at addy getting "attacked" by nicholas..Why should I save him anyway? xD *evil look I am sure he can manage *even big evil look

HEhehehe

anyway, when addy sent me home..I tried my experiment and realised that I am a total failure at this...ARHH!!I admit I was damn damn damn damn shy and blushing and it seem such a simple task...all i need is to open my mouth and say...=x nvm *bangs wall..and it came out as a mere whisper i guess...-.- and I jus rushed into the lift (and my little finger accidentally got caught at the door....*OUCH..) I wrenched it out (thank god its not broken, jus a bit painful) and rush into the lift with my face being damn hot..WADS WRONG WITH ME *bangs wall...

Anyway, after that whole incident+a weakened/tired body, after collapsing on the bed and having a nice nap, i woke up feeling horrible..was shivering in the shower...totally lost my appetite..and after a while..I realised I have a fever!!! Ahhh....nvm...zzZZ and nicholas is attempting to gay with addy...wish him luck then..I no energy to bother anyway..*faints

Post rating: 10% happy, 10% sad, 80% dying..

P.S ADDY THANKS FOR YOUR LOCKER!!!WOOTS I LOVE IT!!! =)

Quote of the day: When there is a carrot, there is always a stick (from darren)

poem

Found some random poem...I am sure if Yuge visits she will like it de hahas...

我只喜欢你，我不去爱你
喜欢你我可以偷偷地欣赏
远远地隔着玻璃跟你打招呼
喜欢你我可以窃窃地笑
把你侃得躺在地上起不来

我只喜欢你，我不去爱你
爱你我会患得患失
爱你我会没了自己
爱你我的心情从此由你来主宰
爱你我的情绪波动太大

我只喜欢你，我不去爱你
喜欢你我会感激你对我的帮助
喜欢你我对你的短信会发出会心的一笑
喜欢你我可以听你讲你心中的秘密
喜欢你我会把你当哥们一样使来唤去

我只喜欢你，我不去爱你
喜欢你我可以慢慢地品味咖啡的味道
细细地品读你的心情文字
喜欢你我会在有月的夜晚偶然想起你
在记忆中搜寻你的足迹
喜欢你我会在雪地里笑得很灿烂
喜欢你我会对着一朵花微笑

爱你我的世界从此变得狭小
再也容不下任何东西
爱你我会在布满阳光的早晨手足无措
因为你的一句无关痛痒的戏语
爱你我会听了某首曲子后泪流满面
爱你我会怀揣着残杯顾影自怜

我只喜欢你，
因为我要和你做一生一世的朋友
不去爱你，
因为我担心有一天会失去你
我只喜欢你，
因为我要把那些愉快的往事悬挂在窗前
在有风的晚上细细地品味甜蜜情谊的芳香
我不去爱你，
因为我不想让孤独寂寞从此爱上了我
我不想让泪水浸湿了一个个古老的歌谣

可惜不知不觉，
已经爱上...

??

Maybe I am just not suited to some things..I dont understand myself...I thought I was strong...From the past I can survive loneliness..In fact sometimes I like the feeling of being alone because I have all the freedom I have..But I cant believe it..Now, because I am so used to your existance, so used to you, that I feel lonely when I am alone..Grr...I am hopeless arh?...nvm crap

Oh ya I am going to try an experiment, but Addy you have to be there(as the reagent) and the conditions have to be right...=x lolx..

Crane count : 113

melancony

After watching the 14 episodes of haruhi suzumiya, I am frozen solid and speechless at the ending....It has almost totally no link (or maybe a bit?) But I realised something, I understand the feelings of haruhi..

Life is just so boring, someone on earth is bound to have the same experience as me one way or another.And I have been searching for something to interest me, save me out of boredom for so long. Well, thanks to the existance of some bunch of great friends, I guess I wont be that bored.

Oh ya, Mr Simon Leow, Thank you for your attempt to save our class from total failure. Tell the truth, even though my class complain a lot and was unhappy about staying back and doing the tutorials and all...From the bottom of my heart I thank you. I never thought about being able to catch up in my studies no matter what subject. But after all that chionging of tutorials and supplementary exercises and practise, I have to admit it helped out a lot. I never felt so happy, so relieved when I stepped out of LT5 after the test. For the first time, I am not going to fail. There is also that teeny weeny slight chance that maybe maybe I will get close to full marks. I am starting to try and catch up in my other subjects and finally attempt my tutorials pushing aside excuses such as I am tired, I dont have time etc etc.Lets hope that it will work out fine.

I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO BE RETAINED!

Quote of the day: There is no such thing as "I will never catch up" unless you dont do anything to help yourself.

Post rating: 30% happy, 1% emo, 69% hopeful

P.s Currently aimlessly folding cranes maybe something big will happen when I finish the 1000th one.Crane count(excluding those with addy) : 107

Okay.Today was kinda crap due to PW woes..PW SUCK!!!I forget to print our dearest GPP out for submission.So apparently ended up with a series of unfortunate events..

Firstly, SOMEONE jus totally ignored my existance and didnt even give me basic respect to speak face to face.Didnt answer my call,(I called 3 times) walked away at a fast speed as if I am some sort of disease and pissed my off further when she jus snapped at me saying its my fault and all.CRAP.Then at a later time, when her pms syndrome is partially gone, she agreed to accept our GPP.SO me and my grp leader ran to the library during civics to print it out.

At the library, after booking a com, the DARLING computer took its own sweet time to load its computer settings.ARE you kidding me?!! What settings will take SO LONG?! What to set up anti hacking, anti weirdos, prevention of background changes arh?And after opening the dearest GPP, i was faced with microsoft word problems(it refuse to open 2 windows,lazy bum of a computer), Font problems (the com hates my font so much it simply refuse to acknowledge it)..

Finally when I can press the print button...I got lost with the ez link paying system and was frantically looking for the ezlink scanner...Heres the funny part...after searching around the area (it was jus in front of me..), I found only the photocopy card machine.So assuming that it may jus be the so called ez link card reader, I stuffed my ezlink card into it..when i got it in, my grp ldr found the real reader...I was scammed!!!And feeling extremely stupid.So i pressed the eject button to get my ezlink card back again..It was stuck.Apparently its too fat as compared to a photocopy card (oh wow i realised?!!).While listening to the machine screaming at me making sounds "toooooooooootoooooooooootoooo" sounding like censored swearing sounds...my ldr went to borrow ezlink from someone else...I feel like a total idiot pressing the eject button over and over again, begging and cursing the machine to spit out my ezlink card..or sounding like encouraging someone to give birth -.-

"push it out!!Come on you can do it!dont fail me now!!"

People must have think that I am mad and will probably be containing the urge to send me to IMH for special treatment.I was practically banging the machine, looking it from all sorts of angles hoping that there will be some sort of place that I can take it out from (was thinking along the lines of paper jam..)Anyway, when the teacher in charge came over, I was taking out another card from my wallet and poking the my stuck ezlink card...(its dumb) and wow!!It got out!!So after meddling with the system and all...my ezlink card only has $0.75 left...-.- thank god was still sufficient (left with $0.15 after printing)..After all the hectic and the printer printing i heave a sigh of relief...I took the paper out jus to find...

streaks of light PINK!!!

Ouch the toner is unbalanced i guess....nvm and so the series of the GPP incident is over for now..

Quote of the day: Expect the unexpected...

Post rating: 30% anger 10% laughter 60%speechless...

lesson learnt

OkOk..life isnt THAT bad after all =) hahas think through a lot of stuff and ya grown up a bit ba...

And hey nick!You are forgiven la xD so dont bother to break with addy!!go on really(because I will kajiao and be lightbulb for fun instead of being so spoil sport)!!Jeesh me arh hahas...

Actually..this thing came from sec 4 when the guy I like acts like gay(maybe looks and IS gay?) and goes around guys all the time -.- And I cant get close to him because he gays too much so ya hahas.....but now its a totally different case(oh wow I realised?hahas) And Lihe had a point there about trust and all..

Quote of the day: If you love a person,let him go.If he returns he is yours.If he doesnt,he was never yours in the first place

Post rating: 100%happy?0%emo!!

P.S. That day when I was "murdering"the water pipe venting my frustration...thnx for offering your hand for me to hit so I can vent my emotions..I was kinda touched (cus SOMEONE is afraid of pain haha) but eh......you think I will bear to hit you in that situation meh?(when I may jus lose control or I injure you lo).Well...I may seem very 野蛮,but deep down I am jus a 口硬心软person..Thnx arh..really really..from the bottom of my heart..I appreciate it..

random

Dont know what to post but jus feel like putting random stuff that pop out of my mind...

I want to go to the botanical gardens and take a nice long break and lie on the grass listening to the sounds of the rubber tree seeds popping...well..It doesnt matter who goes with me though..I am used to being alone for a long time and if anyone wants to tag along best if its only 1 person..who dont mind mosquito bites and long walks and jus like nature..hai...so relaxing...

well..maybe tmr I may consider doing that..BUT back to reality..I got HWK TO DO!!!zzzZZZ it will be so anti climax if I bring my hwk along with me..haha..maybe I should try to pia as much as possible today ba..nxt week is one whole week of tests...sad sia..nvm..

But really despite being a hectic day...I dont feel that stressed when I think of the scene above...ahhhh..so relaxing....=x well life is not that bad after all hahas...mmmm....

I LOVE life!
I LOVE EG/auxilion!
I LOVE my family!
I LOVE MYSELF!
I LOVE my laptop!
I LOVE EVERYTHING AND EVERYTHING IN LIFE(despite it being ridiculously sucky sometimes)
and....mmmmmmm...am I missing anything?....mmmm...lemme think....mmmmmmmmmmmm.........Dunno la oh ya

I LOVE SLEEP!
I LOVE RAIN!
I LOVE NATURE!!
I LOVE Dcube!!(dindendai hahas)
anything else?O.o dunno~~~~~kk enough ciao!!

Quote of the day: life is not fair, unless you make it fair (by me!!)

Post rating: Happy:30% Emo:0.0001% Calm and at ease: 69.9999














P.S I LOVE ADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahas XD

Jealousy

OKok I decided to just post on this issue and stop it and END IT right there..ARHHH!!!Here goes nothing...

I CANT BELIEVE THAT I AM THAT HOPELESS TO BE JEALOUS OF A GUY!!!*bangs wall...stupid right?

Sounds like I am paranoid right?Even I have to admit its ridiculously STUPID!NIcholas dont worry I am not angry with you because you gay with a lot of guys and all..But..but...it jus seems that Addy seems much more happier with you -.- (I feel crap..zz) and...that he more willing to find you as compared to me?ARHHH!!!?!!!The problem now is in my mind theres 2 sides arguing...One going on about ya I am jealous of nicholas yadayadayada..but the other is reprimanding me that I should not be acting like this..should stop this crazy thinking..should just let it go!When both sides talk to each other I am okay with it...When both sides "gay" with each other I am still enduring(because I know he is kidding and they are jus close friends)..

But when it gets extremely scary....e.g like acting as if they are gonna kiss each other or hugging each other..I wanted to run away from the scene(actually i did that literally)...ya ya ya they are kidding..but I really cannot help it!!Its dumb but the reason is that damn it I wish I was nicholas all of a sudden..I rather switch places..this part is gonna sound DAMN weird and ought to be censored but I wish he was hugging me instead of nicholas...zzz you know.. he never iniated that to me (only once its me who asked for it...) but with nicholas he jus pounce on him lol...=x (not forcing you or anything..)arh!!!!What on earth is wrong with me!!grrrr.......RAWRS!!!And ADDY YOU TOLD ME YOU HATE GAYING!!(*throws that aside)I am not angry with anyone..BUT MYSELF for having this feeling anyway

Okay I should start brainwashing myself now..Why I should stop being extremely stupid and
dumb.
1.They are good friends
2.I am going to be a huge trouble(to addy) if I continue
3.Its quite dumb because nick is a guy..
4.Its in school you idiot..what else can you expect?
5.I do not want this to affect me for god knows how long and irritate me
6.I do not want to be bitter towards nicholas(because he is a nice friend)
7.I les with Ding also =x (but I dont neglect addy either....eh this shouldnt be included
here..rebuttal not accepted!!)
8.etc etc....

How to cancel/forget/remove this negative feeling?Occupy myself with something else and not be bothered!OR..leave me with Ding or husky if both of you want to gay openly in front of me ha!full stop end of story..crazy event settled.

Random quote:80%+ of misunderstandings and conflicts are caused by lack of Communication or miscommunication.

Post rating: happy 0% Emo 0% stupidity 100%

FLush

Yay its fun today with me ding and denise together lesing in the 2nd floor EG room..I lie on ding's waist...denise lie on my tummy...hahas fun fun!=x and the crapping about the next door guys toliet..That was Damn funny!!!HAHAHAHA...omg we were like crapping abt a lot of stuff when someone flushed the toliet..and apparently ding gt wacked on the butt by denise for some comment she made..so she faked a scream(a scary one at that.)and we were laughing like siao..thus we started the talk on the next door toliet..(BOYS).Something tells me its time for a commercial break!!

*music*

Presenting the new flushing system!!

Its the most interactive and creative system anyone has came up with!Ever felt bored after doing your business in the toliet and hearing the same boring sound over and over again when you flush the toliet?Having the urge to bash toliets up just because the only sound they make is *glugglugglugglugglugSWASH...swish.....*?Fear no more!Invented by a special innovative company called Dcube headed by 3 intelligent young ladies...We have the FLUSH O SOUND!!

*drums roll*

Flush-O-sound is a unique new system whereby whenever you finish your business in the toliet and press the boring same old button again....A special sound is given out!Isnt it amazing?Whats more, the sound varies all the time and is constantly changing!(depending on the crazy level of the 3 girls in charge)

Here are some samples:

Scary scream "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!"
Ghastly singing"laaaaallaaaalaaaaLLAAAAAA~"
Tinkling Bells"Ding ding ding"
Crazy laughter"AHAHAHAHA...AHAHHAHAHAHAH..AHAHAHAHA!!!"
Grand exclaimations"OH MY GOD!!OH MY GOD!!!"

Thats not all!This wonderous creation not just make sounds, it talks too!Theres always the occasional "Nooooo!!" or the "Dont drown me!I cant swim!" or "I am stuck in here!Someone..anyone..SAVE ME!!" and many many more!

SO what are you waiting for?Get it now while stocks last!Call 1800-dindendai for more information.Showroom at PD block 2nd floor boys toliet beside EG room(only when the 3 girls are there hahas).Terms and conditions apply.

*musics*

=P signing off!Rating: 100% happy 0% emo

zzzz

Nothing much to post bah..
Quote of the day: I will not interfere.

Well..addy tell the truth I am glad you finally got up and be more like a BUM..actually I wanted to settle that issue myself..but since you asked for it and was starting to sound like an arguement..tell truth in that few minutes I was fighting with myself thinking of whether I should insist on settling it or let you do it.

1 side..I wanted to help and make up for not bringing it up long ago..

the other side..you are now the BUM and ought to reaffirm your authority..and to learn something from it even if it means more and more trouble(like duh when such things happen more prob appears..e.g mentality changes yadadada lets not elaborate)

My decision was because I should give you the chance...So to ensure I dont do anything stupid at the background to help you make your job easier...I said I will not interfere..not at all..Its all yours to be in charge of now..even if it got screwed I will not interfere either..its the most basic respect I can give you...

EG management

I just read Denise's Email on EG stuff...and somehow it hurts a bit to read the part on if there is anything yadayada please inform the BUM and the A BUMs...Its like I dont matter anymore...okok it sounds wrong(because I sound power hungry?nah..)..but now somehow the position thingy is starting to affect me...I got this horrible thought that since I have no other special status or whatever I am not supposed to interfere with anything else of EG apart from doing my job of creative director and finance head..Its a horrible and irresponsible thought..But...I no longer have the authority?Or is it just that I am thinking of if I am doing extra work out of my area-in-charge...Others may just tell me whats the point?You are not acknowledged anyway...thats the situation so far..and I kinda hate the feeling...Ok..denise if there is a chance can there be a real trashing session?Because seriously I think I will blast at everyone(except some ppl)if there is one..maybe tell the truth on some in particular...because I cant stand politics..I cant stand it at all!!! damn...DAMN...


okay...jr asked for happy stuff to be posted....welll.................dunno eh......cannot blame me la...listen to one song then emo liao...笑着流泪..then tues got 3 tests..GP..econs..and chem wow?..jeesh must really catch up..I MUST NOT BE RETAINED!!!*prays to jesus god..buddha guan ying..allah and prophet!!I think next time before a post I put rating e.g emo 70% happy 30% hahas thats for this post?
Why I should be happy...

my mum gave me $12 for helping to carry 50kg of cement and 2 boxes of tiles for my dad..and praised me for cleaning the house on sat..

sat because I wanted to study so stayed at home till around 4 then wanted to go out to find addy to pass him husky and his psp(cus he lent me on fri in case i get bored before he go home while i stay in the eg room..sweet lor =x)and another reason because I wanted to see him la(psps a bit hopeless eh *shy*) then because he wanted to study at home(made me a bit down) so I decided to jus go to the library to study a while before going down to his house to pass him the things...after taking some books to entertain myself in the library and settling down in my fave corner..he called!And asked me where am I?So I replied that I am in the library 3rd floor + why ask?(cus he wanted to study at home?)He said that he too sian at home so he go find me..(wow?*touched..)I tio stunned then was replying in a negative way because I dont know how to react...but wahhh...thanks a lot!!I did try to hide a bit for fun but he found me..

Oh ya I figured out chemical energetics!!!The basics..hopefully I WONT FAIL THIS LECTURE TEST!!!jia you!!(p.s this post rating should change to happy55%emo45%)