Stomach flu

OUCH..I can proclaim that this is one of the worse days of my life....Never ever have I felt so weak in my whole life!!!Well..at least not totally hopeless cus when I was applying for early leave, the AM (dunno wads that) suspected me of lying of my fever cus

"You dont look sick.."

I really feel like punching her and saying

"Well thats because I AM CONTROLING THE PAIN AND SMILING!!YOU TRY STANDING IN MY POSITION!!"

Oh well, I guess I got something close to or IS stomach flu...I couldnt just let it torture me further cus I was really dying..with the running to toliet due to diarrea(dunno how to spell) and the feeling of vomiting...and damn weak -.- the worse thing is that I CANT TASTE ANYTHING AT ALL!!!...the feeling sucks I tell you..*sob sob

Anyway..despite all this..I have to thank some people for their care and concern...

Keith for lending me $10 and telling me to take care and entertain me + gave me peace while i was in horrible pain at the grandstand...and looking for something I dropped...(ouch)

Lihe for looking for that thingy too lolx while I run around for the early leave form

My class people for showing me concern and caring for me..especially the girls..thanks to gavin and calvin for help with the early leave form...thanks to sharron for preventing me from taking milk (or it will be worse) thanks to anna for telling me that its a wonderful disease as she lost 3kg the last time she got it...thanks to clara for saving me from pc this morning..Sherrill for her interesting fierce sms of care and concern..thanks to those I didnt mention psps

Denise for buying my breakfast and allowing a sweaty and half dead me to lie on her bag

Thanks to the GO staff who tolerated my running in and out to figure out the early leave procedure.Thanks to the Ms quek who finally appeared and told me best dont return to sch O.o thanks to the ECONS teacher Mr ho

Thanks to my dad for sponsering my bills and saving me from school

okok...well...thanks to addy for accompanying me to the clinic..actually I wasnt planning on dragging him along..(because I am too used to suffering on my own and dont want to bother anyone...) *push that aside but I dont know what to do during waiting time..and tell the truth I dont want to go there alone..so I ask for husky from addy..at least that would be great company xD In the end he went with me (mus be quite boring huh?) zzzZZZ in fact I was slipping out of conscience during waiting time but kept awake by listening to him and myself trying to talk..

KK got mc for tmr..R.E.S.T!!!I shall emo with the toliet and my medicine ESPECIALLY the painkillers (oh wow I WAS PRESCRIBED PAINKILLERS?!)

...

ARHHHHHH!!!!Okok after one hectic day of starvation..I decided+swear that DMR is never NEVER gonna STARVE herself ever again!!!!!Well, to save money, I was trying my best to contain my hunger and only ate cereal for my break (also due to the need to do PW)..and so it lasted till the end of lesson time...when gastric hit me..

*ouch ouch pain pain...

With the reduced time to eat later at 217 due to GP....ZzzzzZZZ I gobbled up my food...in an extremely unstable and weak state..(was sitting with jean le and addy but I didnt show) anyway after eating...(happy!!happy!!)..but still headache+a sudden rush of thoughts made me a bit dizzy so I decided to try to not think of anything..keeping silent...

*silence...

After all the cca activites+darren's discussion..I was feeling better after laughing at the idea of a special pulley system for food..(if i got the energy can do commercial but nvm) ..you need a special duty slot for food runners and transporters u know =x hahas..anyway..after the meeting and time to go home..I was entertained by nicholas attempting to gay/gaying with addy..LOL!!!

Gross but got my entertainment!!

kiat wah and jiawei was asking me u not jealous meh?Okay..I am pass that stage and I realised that there is no point in getting jealous and making addy feel bad...and its funny looking at addy getting "attacked" by nicholas..Why should I save him anyway? xD *evil look I am sure he can manage *even big evil look

HEhehehe

anyway, when addy sent me home..I tried my experiment and realised that I am a total failure at this...ARHH!!I admit I was damn damn damn damn shy and blushing and it seem such a simple task...all i need is to open my mouth and say...=x nvm *bangs wall..and it came out as a mere whisper i guess...-.- and I jus rushed into the lift (and my little finger accidentally got caught at the door....*OUCH..) I wrenched it out (thank god its not broken, jus a bit painful) and rush into the lift with my face being damn hot..WADS WRONG WITH ME *bangs wall...

Anyway, after that whole incident+a weakened/tired body, after collapsing on the bed and having a nice nap, i woke up feeling horrible..was shivering in the shower...totally lost my appetite..and after a while..I realised I have a fever!!! Ahhh....nvm...zzZZ and nicholas is attempting to gay with addy...wish him luck then..I no energy to bother anyway..*faints

Post rating: 10% happy, 10% sad, 80% dying..

P.S ADDY THANKS FOR YOUR LOCKER!!!WOOTS I LOVE IT!!! =)

Quote of the day: When there is a carrot, there is always a stick (from darren)

poem

Found some random poem...I am sure if Yuge visits she will like it de hahas...

我只喜欢你，我不去爱你
喜欢你我可以偷偷地欣赏
远远地隔着玻璃跟你打招呼
喜欢你我可以窃窃地笑
把你侃得躺在地上起不来

我只喜欢你，我不去爱你
爱你我会患得患失
爱你我会没了自己
爱你我的心情从此由你来主宰
爱你我的情绪波动太大

我只喜欢你，我不去爱你
喜欢你我会感激你对我的帮助
喜欢你我对你的短信会发出会心的一笑
喜欢你我可以听你讲你心中的秘密
喜欢你我会把你当哥们一样使来唤去

我只喜欢你，我不去爱你
喜欢你我可以慢慢地品味咖啡的味道
细细地品读你的心情文字
喜欢你我会在有月的夜晚偶然想起你
在记忆中搜寻你的足迹
喜欢你我会在雪地里笑得很灿烂
喜欢你我会对着一朵花微笑

爱你我的世界从此变得狭小
再也容不下任何东西
爱你我会在布满阳光的早晨手足无措
因为你的一句无关痛痒的戏语
爱你我会听了某首曲子后泪流满面
爱你我会怀揣着残杯顾影自怜

我只喜欢你，
因为我要和你做一生一世的朋友
不去爱你，
因为我担心有一天会失去你
我只喜欢你，
因为我要把那些愉快的往事悬挂在窗前
在有风的晚上细细地品味甜蜜情谊的芳香
我不去爱你，
因为我不想让孤独寂寞从此爱上了我
我不想让泪水浸湿了一个个古老的歌谣

可惜不知不觉，
已经爱上...

??

Maybe I am just not suited to some things..I dont understand myself...I thought I was strong...From the past I can survive loneliness..In fact sometimes I like the feeling of being alone because I have all the freedom I have..But I cant believe it..Now, because I am so used to your existance, so used to you, that I feel lonely when I am alone..Grr...I am hopeless arh?...nvm crap

Oh ya I am going to try an experiment, but Addy you have to be there(as the reagent) and the conditions have to be right...=x lolx..

Crane count : 113

melancony

After watching the 14 episodes of haruhi suzumiya, I am frozen solid and speechless at the ending....It has almost totally no link (or maybe a bit?) But I realised something, I understand the feelings of haruhi..

Life is just so boring, someone on earth is bound to have the same experience as me one way or another.And I have been searching for something to interest me, save me out of boredom for so long. Well, thanks to the existance of some bunch of great friends, I guess I wont be that bored.

Oh ya, Mr Simon Leow, Thank you for your attempt to save our class from total failure. Tell the truth, even though my class complain a lot and was unhappy about staying back and doing the tutorials and all...From the bottom of my heart I thank you. I never thought about being able to catch up in my studies no matter what subject. But after all that chionging of tutorials and supplementary exercises and practise, I have to admit it helped out a lot. I never felt so happy, so relieved when I stepped out of LT5 after the test. For the first time, I am not going to fail. There is also that teeny weeny slight chance that maybe maybe I will get close to full marks. I am starting to try and catch up in my other subjects and finally attempt my tutorials pushing aside excuses such as I am tired, I dont have time etc etc.Lets hope that it will work out fine.

I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO BE RETAINED!

Quote of the day: There is no such thing as "I will never catch up" unless you dont do anything to help yourself.

Post rating: 30% happy, 1% emo, 69% hopeful

P.s Currently aimlessly folding cranes maybe something big will happen when I finish the 1000th one.Crane count(excluding those with addy) : 107

Okay.Today was kinda crap due to PW woes..PW SUCK!!!I forget to print our dearest GPP out for submission.So apparently ended up with a series of unfortunate events..

Firstly, SOMEONE jus totally ignored my existance and didnt even give me basic respect to speak face to face.Didnt answer my call,(I called 3 times) walked away at a fast speed as if I am some sort of disease and pissed my off further when she jus snapped at me saying its my fault and all.CRAP.Then at a later time, when her pms syndrome is partially gone, she agreed to accept our GPP.SO me and my grp leader ran to the library during civics to print it out.

At the library, after booking a com, the DARLING computer took its own sweet time to load its computer settings.ARE you kidding me?!! What settings will take SO LONG?! What to set up anti hacking, anti weirdos, prevention of background changes arh?And after opening the dearest GPP, i was faced with microsoft word problems(it refuse to open 2 windows,lazy bum of a computer), Font problems (the com hates my font so much it simply refuse to acknowledge it)..

Finally when I can press the print button...I got lost with the ez link paying system and was frantically looking for the ezlink scanner...Heres the funny part...after searching around the area (it was jus in front of me..), I found only the photocopy card machine.So assuming that it may jus be the so called ez link card reader, I stuffed my ezlink card into it..when i got it in, my grp ldr found the real reader...I was scammed!!!And feeling extremely stupid.So i pressed the eject button to get my ezlink card back again..It was stuck.Apparently its too fat as compared to a photocopy card (oh wow i realised?!!).While listening to the machine screaming at me making sounds "toooooooooootoooooooooootoooo" sounding like censored swearing sounds...my ldr went to borrow ezlink from someone else...I feel like a total idiot pressing the eject button over and over again, begging and cursing the machine to spit out my ezlink card..or sounding like encouraging someone to give birth -.-

"push it out!!Come on you can do it!dont fail me now!!"

People must have think that I am mad and will probably be containing the urge to send me to IMH for special treatment.I was practically banging the machine, looking it from all sorts of angles hoping that there will be some sort of place that I can take it out from (was thinking along the lines of paper jam..)Anyway, when the teacher in charge came over, I was taking out another card from my wallet and poking the my stuck ezlink card...(its dumb) and wow!!It got out!!So after meddling with the system and all...my ezlink card only has $0.75 left...-.- thank god was still sufficient (left with $0.15 after printing)..After all the hectic and the printer printing i heave a sigh of relief...I took the paper out jus to find...

streaks of light PINK!!!

Ouch the toner is unbalanced i guess....nvm and so the series of the GPP incident is over for now..

Quote of the day: Expect the unexpected...

Post rating: 30% anger 10% laughter 60%speechless...

lesson learnt

OkOk..life isnt THAT bad after all =) hahas think through a lot of stuff and ya grown up a bit ba...

And hey nick!You are forgiven la xD so dont bother to break with addy!!go on really(because I will kajiao and be lightbulb for fun instead of being so spoil sport)!!Jeesh me arh hahas...

Actually..this thing came from sec 4 when the guy I like acts like gay(maybe looks and IS gay?) and goes around guys all the time -.- And I cant get close to him because he gays too much so ya hahas.....but now its a totally different case(oh wow I realised?hahas) And Lihe had a point there about trust and all..

Quote of the day: If you love a person,let him go.If he returns he is yours.If he doesnt,he was never yours in the first place

Post rating: 100%happy?0%emo!!

P.S. That day when I was "murdering"the water pipe venting my frustration...thnx for offering your hand for me to hit so I can vent my emotions..I was kinda touched (cus SOMEONE is afraid of pain haha) but eh......you think I will bear to hit you in that situation meh?(when I may jus lose control or I injure you lo).Well...I may seem very 野蛮,but deep down I am jus a 口硬心软person..Thnx arh..really really..from the bottom of my heart..I appreciate it..

random

Dont know what to post but jus feel like putting random stuff that pop out of my mind...

I want to go to the botanical gardens and take a nice long break and lie on the grass listening to the sounds of the rubber tree seeds popping...well..It doesnt matter who goes with me though..I am used to being alone for a long time and if anyone wants to tag along best if its only 1 person..who dont mind mosquito bites and long walks and jus like nature..hai...so relaxing...

well..maybe tmr I may consider doing that..BUT back to reality..I got HWK TO DO!!!zzzZZZ it will be so anti climax if I bring my hwk along with me..haha..maybe I should try to pia as much as possible today ba..nxt week is one whole week of tests...sad sia..nvm..

But really despite being a hectic day...I dont feel that stressed when I think of the scene above...ahhhh..so relaxing....=x well life is not that bad after all hahas...mmmm....

I LOVE life!
I LOVE EG/auxilion!
I LOVE my family!
I LOVE MYSELF!
I LOVE my laptop!
I LOVE EVERYTHING AND EVERYTHING IN LIFE(despite it being ridiculously sucky sometimes)
and....mmmmmmm...am I missing anything?....mmmm...lemme think....mmmmmmmmmmmm.........Dunno la oh ya

I LOVE SLEEP!
I LOVE RAIN!
I LOVE NATURE!!
I LOVE Dcube!!(dindendai hahas)
anything else?O.o dunno~~~~~kk enough ciao!!

Quote of the day: life is not fair, unless you make it fair (by me!!)

Post rating: Happy:30% Emo:0.0001% Calm and at ease: 69.9999














P.S I LOVE ADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahas XD

Jealousy

OKok I decided to just post on this issue and stop it and END IT right there..ARHHH!!!Here goes nothing...

I CANT BELIEVE THAT I AM THAT HOPELESS TO BE JEALOUS OF A GUY!!!*bangs wall...stupid right?

Sounds like I am paranoid right?Even I have to admit its ridiculously STUPID!NIcholas dont worry I am not angry with you because you gay with a lot of guys and all..But..but...it jus seems that Addy seems much more happier with you -.- (I feel crap..zz) and...that he more willing to find you as compared to me?ARHHH!!!?!!!The problem now is in my mind theres 2 sides arguing...One going on about ya I am jealous of nicholas yadayadayada..but the other is reprimanding me that I should not be acting like this..should stop this crazy thinking..should just let it go!When both sides talk to each other I am okay with it...When both sides "gay" with each other I am still enduring(because I know he is kidding and they are jus close friends)..

But when it gets extremely scary....e.g like acting as if they are gonna kiss each other or hugging each other..I wanted to run away from the scene(actually i did that literally)...ya ya ya they are kidding..but I really cannot help it!!Its dumb but the reason is that damn it I wish I was nicholas all of a sudden..I rather switch places..this part is gonna sound DAMN weird and ought to be censored but I wish he was hugging me instead of nicholas...zzz you know.. he never iniated that to me (only once its me who asked for it...) but with nicholas he jus pounce on him lol...=x (not forcing you or anything..)arh!!!!What on earth is wrong with me!!grrrr.......RAWRS!!!And ADDY YOU TOLD ME YOU HATE GAYING!!(*throws that aside)I am not angry with anyone..BUT MYSELF for having this feeling anyway

Okay I should start brainwashing myself now..Why I should stop being extremely stupid and
dumb.
1.They are good friends
2.I am going to be a huge trouble(to addy) if I continue
3.Its quite dumb because nick is a guy..
4.Its in school you idiot..what else can you expect?
5.I do not want this to affect me for god knows how long and irritate me
6.I do not want to be bitter towards nicholas(because he is a nice friend)
7.I les with Ding also =x (but I dont neglect addy either....eh this shouldnt be included
here..rebuttal not accepted!!)
8.etc etc....

How to cancel/forget/remove this negative feeling?Occupy myself with something else and not be bothered!OR..leave me with Ding or husky if both of you want to gay openly in front of me ha!full stop end of story..crazy event settled.

Random quote:80%+ of misunderstandings and conflicts are caused by lack of Communication or miscommunication.

Post rating: happy 0% Emo 0% stupidity 100%

FLush

Yay its fun today with me ding and denise together lesing in the 2nd floor EG room..I lie on ding's waist...denise lie on my tummy...hahas fun fun!=x and the crapping about the next door guys toliet..That was Damn funny!!!HAHAHAHA...omg we were like crapping abt a lot of stuff when someone flushed the toliet..and apparently ding gt wacked on the butt by denise for some comment she made..so she faked a scream(a scary one at that.)and we were laughing like siao..thus we started the talk on the next door toliet..(BOYS).Something tells me its time for a commercial break!!

*music*

Presenting the new flushing system!!

Its the most interactive and creative system anyone has came up with!Ever felt bored after doing your business in the toliet and hearing the same boring sound over and over again when you flush the toliet?Having the urge to bash toliets up just because the only sound they make is *glugglugglugglugglugSWASH...swish.....*?Fear no more!Invented by a special innovative company called Dcube headed by 3 intelligent young ladies...We have the FLUSH O SOUND!!

*drums roll*

Flush-O-sound is a unique new system whereby whenever you finish your business in the toliet and press the boring same old button again....A special sound is given out!Isnt it amazing?Whats more, the sound varies all the time and is constantly changing!(depending on the crazy level of the 3 girls in charge)

Here are some samples:

Scary scream "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!"
Ghastly singing"laaaaallaaaalaaaaLLAAAAAA~"
Tinkling Bells"Ding ding ding"
Crazy laughter"AHAHAHAHA...AHAHHAHAHAHAH..AHAHAHAHA!!!"
Grand exclaimations"OH MY GOD!!OH MY GOD!!!"

Thats not all!This wonderous creation not just make sounds, it talks too!Theres always the occasional "Nooooo!!" or the "Dont drown me!I cant swim!" or "I am stuck in here!Someone..anyone..SAVE ME!!" and many many more!

SO what are you waiting for?Get it now while stocks last!Call 1800-dindendai for more information.Showroom at PD block 2nd floor boys toliet beside EG room(only when the 3 girls are there hahas).Terms and conditions apply.

*musics*

=P signing off!Rating: 100% happy 0% emo

zzzz

Nothing much to post bah..
Quote of the day: I will not interfere.

Well..addy tell the truth I am glad you finally got up and be more like a BUM..actually I wanted to settle that issue myself..but since you asked for it and was starting to sound like an arguement..tell truth in that few minutes I was fighting with myself thinking of whether I should insist on settling it or let you do it.

1 side..I wanted to help and make up for not bringing it up long ago..

the other side..you are now the BUM and ought to reaffirm your authority..and to learn something from it even if it means more and more trouble(like duh when such things happen more prob appears..e.g mentality changes yadadada lets not elaborate)

My decision was because I should give you the chance...So to ensure I dont do anything stupid at the background to help you make your job easier...I said I will not interfere..not at all..Its all yours to be in charge of now..even if it got screwed I will not interfere either..its the most basic respect I can give you...

EG management

I just read Denise's Email on EG stuff...and somehow it hurts a bit to read the part on if there is anything yadayada please inform the BUM and the A BUMs...Its like I dont matter anymore...okok it sounds wrong(because I sound power hungry?nah..)..but now somehow the position thingy is starting to affect me...I got this horrible thought that since I have no other special status or whatever I am not supposed to interfere with anything else of EG apart from doing my job of creative director and finance head..Its a horrible and irresponsible thought..But...I no longer have the authority?Or is it just that I am thinking of if I am doing extra work out of my area-in-charge...Others may just tell me whats the point?You are not acknowledged anyway...thats the situation so far..and I kinda hate the feeling...Ok..denise if there is a chance can there be a real trashing session?Because seriously I think I will blast at everyone(except some ppl)if there is one..maybe tell the truth on some in particular...because I cant stand politics..I cant stand it at all!!! damn...DAMN...


okay...jr asked for happy stuff to be posted....welll.................dunno eh......cannot blame me la...listen to one song then emo liao...笑着流泪..then tues got 3 tests..GP..econs..and chem wow?..jeesh must really catch up..I MUST NOT BE RETAINED!!!*prays to jesus god..buddha guan ying..allah and prophet!!I think next time before a post I put rating e.g emo 70% happy 30% hahas thats for this post?
Why I should be happy...

my mum gave me $12 for helping to carry 50kg of cement and 2 boxes of tiles for my dad..and praised me for cleaning the house on sat..

sat because I wanted to study so stayed at home till around 4 then wanted to go out to find addy to pass him husky and his psp(cus he lent me on fri in case i get bored before he go home while i stay in the eg room..sweet lor =x)and another reason because I wanted to see him la(psps a bit hopeless eh *shy*) then because he wanted to study at home(made me a bit down) so I decided to jus go to the library to study a while before going down to his house to pass him the things...after taking some books to entertain myself in the library and settling down in my fave corner..he called!And asked me where am I?So I replied that I am in the library 3rd floor + why ask?(cus he wanted to study at home?)He said that he too sian at home so he go find me..(wow?*touched..)I tio stunned then was replying in a negative way because I dont know how to react...but wahhh...thanks a lot!!I did try to hide a bit for fun but he found me..

Oh ya I figured out chemical energetics!!!The basics..hopefully I WONT FAIL THIS LECTURE TEST!!!jia you!!(p.s this post rating should change to happy55%emo45%)

econs

Well..found smth interesting posted on yuge's blog...related to econs hahaha..

BUSINESS LOGICS
Father: I want you to marry a girl of my choice
Son: 'I will choose my own bride!'
Father: 'But the girl is Bill Gates's daughter.'
Son: 'Well, in that case...ok'

Next Father approaches Bill Gates.
Father: 'I have a husband for your daughter.'
Bill Gates: 'But my daughter is too young to marry!'Father: '
But this young man is a vice-president of the World Bank.'
Bill Gates: 'Ah, in that case...ok'

Finally Father goes to see the president of the World Bank.
Father: 'I have a young man to be recommended as a vice-president.'
President: 'But I already have more vice- presidents than I need!'
Father: 'But this young man is Bill Gates's son-in-law.'
President: 'Ah, in that case...ok'

This is how business is done!!
Moral: Even If you have nothing, You can get Anything. But your attitude
should be positive!

What is Marketing?
You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, 'I am very rich. Marry me!'
That's Direct Marketing

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl.
One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says,
'He's very rich. Marry him.'
That's Advertising.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and get her telephone number.
The next day you call and say, 'Hi, I'm very rich. Marry me.'
That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
You get up and straighten your tie; you walk up to her and pour her a drink.
You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her a ride,
and then say, 'By the way, I'm very rich 'Will you marry me?'
That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
She walks up to you and says, 'You are very rich, I want to marry you.'
That's Brand Recognition.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, 'I'm rich. Marry me'
She gives you a nice hard slap on your face.
That's Customer Feedback

Battle between coke and pepsi...


Round 1....



Pepsi Vs Coke - Watch more amazing videos here


Coke wins!
Round 2...





Pepsi wins!
last round..

YouTube - Coca-Cola VS Pepsi - The new battle
 

a tie!!

Decision day?

This post may sound emo and all but I dont care..I DONT GIVE A DAMN..I should write in my diary or so..but no point since I turned on the com and jus feel like typing...Crap..thanks to eg posting of positions??

I realised that when I am on the limit of my tolerance(towards others) or on the verge of a breakdown ..I shut up totally..refuse to talk..get extremely negative and coping it all inside me..And if mentally exhausted and frustrated..I will tend to "torture" myself(in terms of doing things to extreme until I jus collapse)..I was being damn pessimistic thinking who gives a damn about me?WHo cares about me?Even I dont..I am not important..not important at all..I think it will pass very fast..but nothing matters..

What exactly is responsibility?Its not something that you can give a name to..its not something you can push to anyone whenever and whatever you feel like..There is no such thing as right or wrong..It all depends on what how you see it.I really feel like screaming out of frustration..I dont GET PPL..WHY DO THEY VIEW POSITIONS AS ADDED RESPONSIBILITY?Must everything be given a name to it before you even care?No matter what you get,if you still care..even if u get nothing..wont you still give the same responsibility?I dont understand..I am confused..but I guess..its jus me..

When I joined eg it was initially because of gaming..and the jacket..But after realising its "true motive" i still stayed because I am not just gonna back out and look on the bright side it helps in me reaching for my career..But as time pass by..I start to like the place and contributing to EG jus because I feels a sense of attachment..And when somehow there were worries about it closing down..I made up my mind not to leave it closed..because i like the place..I tried so hard..and somehow..I cant believe that ppl only with status in name will contribute hard..maybe..maybe...of my selfishness because its like expecting everyone to contribute as much as I do...mmmm maybe I should change my mindset..

Tell the truth I dont mind the positions assigned and all..but addy I admit I was a bit hesitant of you becoming BUM because you seemed not confident..And I was worried that you will shoulder all the responsibilities jus because of being BUM..Theres a lot to learn I guess and I was wondering if you can cope..Nope its not that I see no potential in you..NO WAY!Its not that I dont believe in you..And you can laugh about this at me for all I care..Its because damn it I care about you la...can tease me all abt it i dun care..BUT..all these doesnt mean that I am going to throw you aside to save me from thinking too much..I am going to stick through thick and thin with you AND DOnt forget you are not alone..you still gt two A BUMS+all the EG members..But I wont be totally one sided and biaous..oh..I hereby swear(no swearing in eg rm!) that I will not leave addy alone to suffer no matter what..(but not to the extend of spoiling you hor hahas)

Enough of all these..

P.S you better dont get heart attack or faint when I return the favour..its gonna be quite soon...hehehe

ANNIVERSARY?

OMG..I JUST REALISED or remembered something....

Last month...

At this date..7th going 8th..

At the time of around 12-1 midnight..

The turning point of my life..(figure it yourself guys!)

And it had to be today when you "returned" my favour...

Oh wow?!!

Okok enough with the suspence la..apparently its when Jr(dragging ding and turtle) go kajiao me and addy...and it all started..jeesh *shy*

yalayala one month anniversary la..

Thank you all..for that day!! XD

TAGGED

Got this from Yuge and i lazy tag other ppl eh so sry hor >.<>

Rules & Regulations of this quiz are:
a) People who have been tagged must write their answer on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
b) Tag 6 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.

TAGGED BY YUGE!!

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?

A: MMmm...By right I trust that he wont, but I have to answer the qns so..I will

- be grateful that I saw his true colours

- Maybe emo a bit

- AND ensure the person will NEVER live in peace

Q:If you had 3 wishes what would that be?

A: 1.Get my dream job of marketing designer

2.All my friends and family and me be happy

3.I want my death to be die peacefully in my sleep(note: NOT due to some ulu disease)

Q:Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?

A:Oh well..Now I am thinking..but dumb qns cus if I am not real..I wont be posting here!!Although I still wish to be in Elementica..

Q:Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?

A:Why afraid?No point being scared and it still comes to you...RAWR!!

Q:Would you change yourself for the person you love?

A:Change for the better NOT for the worse!! XD

Q:Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

A:Both.If it is not balanced, one side is bound to feel neglected >.<

Q:How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

A:Depends.If the person is worth it and will not dump your heart like trash, forever.Even if the person is damn good in all aspects but ignore your existance no matter how much you contribute..don't waste your time.

Q:If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?

A:Are you kidding me?!I wont bother unless that girlfriend is a horrible person and the person likes me.If so, just wait,take popcorn and watch show.

Q:Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?

A:LIKE DUH..PW SUCKS...

Q:Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?

A:Well...depends whether I ate butterflies for the meal...oops.okay..maybe a bit..

Q:Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?

A:All the time..I got too much ppl in my head so that theres trouble removing them...

Q:Who are currently the most important people to you?

A:ME!Addy!My family!EG!My class!My friends!EVERYONE!!(but S****A)

Q:Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?

A:Ya....Dan lor =x(or maybe a bit for zc) BUT who cares abt such stuff anymore?HAHAHA!

Q:What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?

A:Ultimate trust..understanding..be there for each other when you need them =)

Q:Are you happy with your life?

A:Quite.

Q:Would you give all in a relationship?

A:Kinda obvious.Ya.Love like you have never love before!!

Q:If you fall in love with 1 person, will u stil love other ppl?

A:DUH..I LOVE DING TOO and my bro etc.etc.etc

Q:What type of friends do you like?

A:Any?As long as they do not betray me or tie me down.

Q:Do you often wish there was something you could change?

A:I wish I took O level art.........

Q:What do you notice when you first meet a boy?

A:Character?Aura?I dont really care much about looks I guess..

PHEW!!Enough..btw my phone went for a swim in the sink...rescued by me..and fainted for like one day before making a recovery..thanks to all the gods for the help(if they actually did help =x) AND MY RIGHT EYE IS SWOLLEN FOR NO REASON!!DAMN...EYE PAIN LA!!AND I GOT SCHOOL!!AND TONS OF STUFF TO DO!!
Sian............................................

Stupid directors?

Old movie. New watch? Watch it out!

You need to hold the trigger to shoot someone or...?

Hmmm.... aeroplanes in the Trojan War?

Bows, arrows, ... and cellphones in the olden days?

Now here comes what I hope is everyone's fav....
WOW!!Addidas branded pirates!!!

but not as stupid as......

Hey bush!You have x-ray vision?!
Even more pro!!He can read upside down too!

sigh

These days...are so busy that I gt headaches..And from everyone's faces I can sense their tiredness..Me?DUH I am tired inside out upside down...but its so ironic that I can hide in..someone actually told me "wow in this atmosphere you seem so energetic and stressless"

For that...I am speechless..yayaya I am good at self control emotions control etc etc..But its damn annoying when ppl assume that I wont get hurt and tired!!

I envy those ppl who can jus let out all their emotions and emo for the whole day...but I cant...I keep them all to myself (yes its partially my fault) because I dont want to drag anyone into my emoness and all..and sometimes I personally think that its not worth it if there is smth more important to do.

I dont understand.When I wanted to stay one side and cry,(i tried hiding in my cupboard),I never get the chance to..something someone will jus rush in and stop me..personally I think I need space to breathe..arh!!!Going crazy but who knows?

zzzZZ sounds emo and I dont care!Maybe I will feel better after it all...maybe..

知音 wanted?

Crap

Okok my apologies on the chinese post beforehand..
anyway today..

Denise: If only I can live forever...
Murong: For what?!You'll DIE!!

Lolx....wad on earth is wrong with me?Hahas heard of this sentence lately and think that its kinda special I guess..

If you love someone let him go..if he returns,he is yours..but if he didnt..he wasnt yours to be in the 1st place

nothing much except for my physics test which I BARELY scrapped through..HAIX..HAIX..I shall be lame...

PEARLYN I LOVE YOU!!!Lolx..sounds like les but who cares?If guys can gay why cant girls les?Oopx..cant blame me..its IN SCHOOL....Like duh if girls and guys are restricted from being very close..so no choice then be close to those of the same sex..mmm the rest that I wanted to say is only restricted to my private diary..But dont worry ding hahas love you!!OKok shouldnt be biaous..Denise you too!!Aiya..all girls in EG and my class and etc etc la..Guys?mmmmm.....mmmm....*evil look...hahahas..to everyone (except Addy)I LOVE YOU ALL!!








p.s Why is Addy deprived?Because he is special?(lousy excuse)Nah...BECAUSE...tell you all another time hahaha