My mum has just departed from Singapore to Shanghai with my bro...
And..I cant help feeling scared...
Why?
Because..this is like the first time i am without my mum..
and I am scared..
She does all my washing, settle my meals, be the one who support me..nag at me and all..
even though she will be gone for just 2 weeks..
but I realised that one day..
I will have to leave her..for my own life..
And the fact that she put so much effort in taking care of me..
and I am like not doing much..
Not putting effort into my studies..

I dont want her to feel upset and the feeling that what u did was wasted..
I really dont want to..
especially if I cannot grow up to repay her for what I done..
And knowing this society..
Some people just abandon their parents and live their own lives..
I..dont want to..
Because my mum dont have anyone else..
Others may have their partners and all..
But my mum have only me and my bro..
And from the likes of my bro..
He may follow the footsteps of my dad and a high chance that he may not bother about my mum just like my dad does..
I...just dont know what to do..
Really really dont know..

Tell the truth..
I am scared..
Of the future ahead..
Really really scared...