Dont worry =)
I will take good care of myself
and btw u know why to you it seems that its you that cause me to cry more than laugh?
Because I it is those times that you take note..
Not the times that I am happy around you..
If you dont believe me..
take a notebook..
and put a tick whenever I am happy around you
and put a cross when I am sad because of you..

I am willing to bet that the book will be mostly filled with ticks xD
So have more confidence in yourself k?

Well..haix my poor poor finger..
but despite the injury..
i kinda find my bravery and independence back..
instead of being so spoilt by my bf and my mum..
Feeling so much confident again!!
Lol..

Today..
i dont dare to cut the black dead skin off my wound because part of it is still stuck onto my normal skin..
but if i dont it will hinder my healing..
SO
today while i was in the toliet..
I endured that pain and kinda bite off that skin..(reason for not using scissors? I am scared of infection and cant bear to use that metallic dangerous thingy..)
well there was blood and pain..
but come on..no pain no gain!!
And now my finger looks much better and hopefully recover soon =)
For that..
I have to say that I am quite proud of myself
and feel much more like the me who dont whine so much like a bimbo and cry to everyone about it
Must be brave!!
I MUST xD

and oh ya..
I still love addy hahas lala

take note: the injury...

All thanks to heroics...T.T

My mum has just departed from Singapore to Shanghai with my bro...
And..I cant help feeling scared...
Why?
Because..this is like the first time i am without my mum..
and I am scared..
She does all my washing, settle my meals, be the one who support me..nag at me and all..
even though she will be gone for just 2 weeks..
but I realised that one day..
I will have to leave her..for my own life..
And the fact that she put so much effort in taking care of me..
and I am like not doing much..
Not putting effort into my studies..

I dont want her to feel upset and the feeling that what u did was wasted..
I really dont want to..
especially if I cannot grow up to repay her for what I done..
And knowing this society..
Some people just abandon their parents and live their own lives..
I..dont want to..
Because my mum dont have anyone else..
Others may have their partners and all..
But my mum have only me and my bro..
And from the likes of my bro..
He may follow the footsteps of my dad and a high chance that he may not bother about my mum just like my dad does..
I...just dont know what to do..
Really really dont know..

Tell the truth..
I am scared..
Of the future ahead..
Really really scared...