I am losing my mind...

Seriously..

I ALREADY HAVE ENOUGH STUFF TO MANAGE, WHY AM I BOTHERING SO MUCH?

WHY THE FUCK AM I EVEN DOING THIS?

FUCK CRICKET..FUCK..

I AM SOOO TIRED...SO TIRED OF GOING THROUGH SCREW UP VIDEOS

SICK AND TIRED OF THE FUCKING POOR LIGHTNING AND LIMITED ANGLES FOR THE INDOOR CRICKET..

DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKING IDEA HOW FUCKING DIFFICULT IT IS TO EVEN DO THE DAMN EDIT?

SERIOUSLY...TO THE DAMN NEW PEOPLE...USE YOUR FUCKING BRAINS..

IF THE LIGHTING LOOKS BAD, GO CHANGE YOUR DAMN FUCKING ANGLE...YOU WONT DIE DOING IT FOR FUCK's SAKE..

I WAN SPACE TO BREATHE..

AND ITS SOO HARD

ITS SO FUCKING HELL HARD TO MANAGE EVERYTHING..

I AM NOT A FUCKING GOD..

I HAVE STUPID PROJECTS TO DO, STUPID PRESENTATIONS, AND THE FUCKING STUPID CRICKET SHOW..I NEED REST TIME YOU KNOW..I WANT SOME PERSONAL TIME YOU KNOW....MOST OF ALL...I WANT SOMEONE TO RANT TO ABOUT IT ALL...and not just Addy..and i miss my ring...Denise is going through enough stuff in her life..so I dont want to trouble her with my life...suddenly..I am left alone..again..as usual..eugene is not online..and the only comfort i can seek is sleep itself..i feel miserable..so miserable