I have officially decided to give up gaming!!(until after alvls)
And that includes Dota,o2mania,command and conquer..
NDS games (and other ulu games installed in my computer..)
Solitaire included haha
AND EVEN NEOPETS (LOLx...)
RAWR...Its difficult to resist the temptation to play..
But..for the sake of my results
and the my future freedom..

My dad says that he can get me anything once I get into a uni..
dots..Oh wow..
would breaking ties with him allowed?
I dont mind at all..
If that IS included..
I will be mugging like if I didnt I will die..
Hahas okok..zzz

Watched YES MAN! today with Addy..
Not bad xD
Tell the truth I kinda like that attitude =)
That enthusiastic spirit (but it must be because you are willing to do it from the bottom or your heart..)
I am sure no one could resist such a person
Including me haha

Wouldnt it be nice?
Anyway..
Start to think maybe I should have more of that sort of attitude
mmmm
well..we will see =)

Well..mmm

Addy is out of the hospital!!
*cheers!(Do the misson complete cheer from red alert 2)
haha

Been trying to starting on my holiday hwk..
sigh sigh sigh sigh

But anyway life still rocks!!

Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh..........................
SIGH
Addy is in hospital....
.....
...
..
.
T.T
Any god..
Regardless of any religion
Or race or anything...
Please do something to make him well again..

I dont care if his mum dont like me
I dont care if I have to be an angel
I just want Addy back being healthy..

RAWR..
Gods up there..
If I be nice and do all my homework..
Take good care of my bro..
Clean up my room..
Etc etc
Will it be able to bless him of some sort?

Nvm I shall do that..
At least its worth a try even though it seems rather stupid..

Relieved...
Phew thank god you are alright...

After some thinking, I guess I seem quite self centered and selfish..
If I were in Addy's shoes..
I may/will be the same..
My apologies for being childish,overeacting or anything..
Anyway going home soon..

I miss my bed..
I miss house food (but thanks ding your food was good too xD)
I miss maybe teddy
Oh I am starting to miss hwk actually (because nothing much to do anyway)
Most important thing..
I MISS MY SLEEP!!!!!!

Had lots of fun guys
Thanks to the seniors and fellow J2s!!=)
Auxilion rules!!

dead

I....am feeling very confused..very lost..

These days without addy I have been trying my best to live happily for addy's sake
But deep down I really really miss him a lot a lot a lot...
I actually sms his hp(because it does not have auto roam and he wont spend $$ on overseas sms)
Treating it like my diary because it makes me feels a lot better =)

The 1st day of the chalet..

Then when I heard that he was horribly sick..I was damn worried..
And..
I hated myself.
Because I do not want to pick up lihe's calls cus she pissed me off by smth
So I did not charge my hp to the full..And did not bring the charger to the eg chalet either..
I was the one who caused my own downfall..
Oh ya and I stupidly forget to top up my handphone..

I really hate myself for being so selfish and self centered
And ya I got what I deserve
I am sorry addy for causing u so much trouble..
And addy's mum..I am really sorry..(because when I called you hoping jus to know ur situation..and to hear ur existance, I heard ur mum...and her words really really hurts me abt u shldnt calling me)
for causing so much worry to u and in a way maybe I annoy u?
And also sorry for me falling in love with addy and the other way round..

Maybe I should not be so pessmistic or sounding emo..
But I am really worried about you..
Maybe when you recover..
Then I go find you ba..
I do not want to upset ur mum T.T
Or make your illness worse..

But after that I dont care..
I want compensation!!
I want A GREAT BIG hug..
To remove my emoness..
Husky too small to hug me..T.T

z

LOL!!!My bro jus said some ulu sentence that sounds extremely like tamil..it goes Oh my nian,inniang
I laughed till I cant swallow my rice+ even 喷饭 (cus he repeat it over and over again..)
Not racist or anything..but he sounds DAMN funny...
Anyway..
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Rawr..cant help it..but I miss u..
But I wont emo cus I promised u and myself that I wont make u worry *nods nods

d

WAhhh..
Addy pspspsps sorry sorry for not picking up the 3 calls from u from australia(I guess is u)
was having a war with my bro over the dust pan and broom in the kitchen..
O.o *watery watery eyes psps sorry!
Feel quite bad cus overseas calls are expensive..
Arhh!!!*bangs wall
Forgive me *big innocent eyes
Meow meow meow..

aaahh

Sigh sigh addy is gone to australia..
and one month of taking care of my dear bro..(I get $100 for it though ha)
But...
The main thing is..

MY DAD sucks..
BIG TIME..SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS...
He is a freaking biaous traditional freak..(lolx)
And I hate it hate it hate it..
He is biaous towards my bro..
TREAT HIM LOADS BETTER THAN ME...
Sex discrimination more like it..sucker
Ya ya ya crap..my bro can hit and scold whatever he likes for around 3 times and not get screamed/hitted/or insulted badly( in fact dad still can laugh)
As for ME...
one single small tiny comment and poof!!
WAR!..stupid..
I wish one day I can prove my worth and say f*** u right in front of him
then throw him stacks of money and let him rot..(seriously)
I know its harsh

But
He is the one who caused me so many years of misery
He is the one who dump me into depression
He is the one who deprive me of confidence
He is the one who dont care about the family..

So heck...