I think its about time I become my usual coop up self..the one who dont give a damn what others think and be more independent..I hate myself..I hate it when I become emotional because I cannot control the things I say and hurt ppl as a result..I admit the instance I fall in love I have this tendency to be more emotional..maybe I shouldnt..sometimes I wonder if I will be better if I am alone...but once you are used to being with people..its so difficult..so difficult to not feel lonely anymore..I remember the times when I am kinda anti social..kinda cold hearted I guess..but I never feel sad or the term known as lonely..now..I think I will just have to adjust..and get used to it..but it will never be the same again..

I just want someone who knows me..

Someone who understands me..

Someone who like the way I am..

And just be by my side to hold me when I cry and

to talk about anything under the sun, crap..and have fun..

( And I dont give a damn whether that person is a she or a he )