Addy called me for around 6 mins!!!!!

Yeah I know I am exaggerating but so with like 1-3mins calls isnt really that satisfying..

Yay thats like the best valentine's gift suddenly..

Me being able to listen to his voice for 6 mins and hearing him being cheerful and energetic makes me so happy..

Yeah he is like my charger..

And eh God I thought I pray saying to keep him safe and sound, why are you making his injuries worse? 1st blisters from pumping then now what falling down and bursting them and making them bleed. Oi oi.. Listen God I respect you and all...but anyone who messes with me and my love one will pay!! ( Christians are gonna kill me for this ) Just kidding..

I want to do something too..I want to work hard too since he is also working hard in army

I want to train myself too!! ( But I really hate running.. ) So I better start on that poster design..ARGH

Still..I am super duper happy that he is alright and cheerful and..I am so glad I can hear his voice.. I am really addicted to you

I am a total disaster...

Only rmb Addy's going into army date, forgot about his going into army day

I can tell that Addy is pretty disappointed..

RAWR being busy is not a valid excuse..But still I feel bad about it..

Addy told me not to feel too bad about it but when he keep on bringing it up i feel horrible..

So..

The second I reach hall and went to bath:

I forgot my towel..

Scratched my glasses using the wrong cloth..

nearly tripped

And is super distracted..

My mood is now kinda mad so..sighh

Addy..I dunno whether you will read this but..

我希望你为自己而活而不是为别人而活。

Maybe I made a mistake in making u quit smoking for me..

No it shouldnt be the case..

You should quit for your own sake..because it harms your body..

And if you quit for your own sake..you will not think about it anymore because the decision is made by you not me..

我只希望爱情不要那么样复杂。。

Because I am really not used to having the shield on my heart down..

When it is down, I may feel insecure, invulnerable..especially when everything you say or do will affect me so easily...

Maybe just like Erza in fairytail..without the armor..I get scared..

But if I entrust my heart in the right person..

I know that I will be alright..

And so..Lets hope it will be alright..

One minute of silence for the lose of you.....may we meet again in the next life =)

Lets just hope that things will return to normal..

Really hope so..

Rawr..

Looks like I really have to start using my mind over my heart..

I need to learn how to control my emotions during my period..

Because if every time a problem pops up when I am having my period..

And I think with my heart..I think I am so going to cause a lot of troubles for myself and others close to me..

Among the chaos, I will find order..I must..

last night I was being unreasonable and selfish..to Addy..

I wasnt thinking..only thinking of myself..

Its not as easy as it looks to quit smoking..

And I shouldnt run away..

Ha..Addy looks like you are not the only weak minded person here..

Me too..

If I stayed strong I would have thrown aside my sorrows and support u..

instead of being a big whinny baby..

Making you feel worse will not solve problems..

And I shouldnt just make lousy decisions that benefit me but not u..

Listen..

I suck lolx..

You may think that its you who always seem to hurt me..

Its not true..

Maybe I am just too weak to take it..

And I should stop being so weak..

Telling you not to contact me is stupid too..

Quitting is a difficult period and I am running away..

Isnt it equalivant to betrayal??

I suck again..

Looks like I have a lot of patching to do huh?

AND

STOP RUNNING AWAY..

Okay whinny me should be gone..

And I have to be strong..

Addy jiayou!!